morning got dad to drive me to funan the it mall to check out the notebooks. fell in love with one of the acer laptop. got built in web cam centrino duo all these but over my budget. sad. its good enough that dad let me buy so decide to skip it.
walked from funan to cityhall train station. not a great distance away but enjoy walking alone on the street where all i see was strangers and unique buildings. met up with lyan and hui to go rp. bought the acer one while hui bought the fujitsu one. hers damn cool. got thumbprint recognition one but too bad that one not so suitable for design usage so i couldnt get that. need one to two weeks then can get it cus out of stocks. sians. much more sians when hui's fren told me tp got sell notebooks oso. but i just now got online check dont have leh. if got i sure faint one lor. but thanks dad and mom for allowing me to but. dad and mom i love you. =)
went to find yt then she playing bball so we sat down to talk. fucking sad. useless me.
yes. the useless me cried again for you. thats the donkey times i did that. ppl told me its been years. its time to move on. and i did moved on. but i stopped. again. memories just cant go away, all it did was to fade a little. i know its stupid to cling on after so long. i thought i did let go too. but then everything about you still came back to my mind and heart.
wo zhi ji de ni de hao, ni de wei xiao he ni de.. ren xin li kai.
i hate you for leaving me.
i hate you for making me fall so deep.
i hate you when you told me you remember nothing about us.
i hate you for breaking your promises.
i hate you for being so cruel.
i hate you for your someday logic.
the more i tell myself to hate you and let go, the more i cant.
i still couldnt believe you have changed just over a few days even after so long.
i know im just cheating myself thinking that someday we'll be together like how you used to tell me. i know you'll not see this but theres so much i wish to say.
i liked many guys before but the only one i love i've loved and im loving is only.. you.
but you loved her. i sincerely gave my blessing to both of you when i found out she's the one. i swear.
but.. now, its another her. i know that you are not those that are flower hearted carrot but i cant give you my blessing. sorry i just cant, not for now. but i respect your decision. ni xing fu jiu hao.
failure in friendship and relationship i am.
im just nothing.
xhui jiayou too. you can do it de.
maybe one fine day i can too.
leeyun JIAYOU~
