its been days since i updated.
okay, first news of the day: im pissed and suffocating.
maybe i'll die soon. touch wood for that, but i might be true.
family, friends, schoolwork, love, blah and blah and blah..
all of them are killing me rapidly.
im keeping everyone's secrets, everyday a little more..
and as days go by, all those secrets are filling me up, to the point that i'm struugling to keep these.
and those and not just plain secrets where you listen to them and- forget all about them.
i have the responsiblity to keep them, and never to breathe a single word to anyone.
dont get mistaken that im blaming anyone or dont wish to listen to anyone of you when you need someone.
i'll always here, but somehow i need someone who i can rely on now, to share all the bundens im carrying now.
too heavy they are, too heavy.
everyday, no matter what i am doing or where i am, thoughts of all the shitty come to my mind, and my tears threaten to roll down no matter anytime, any moment.
yet, all i can do is to swallow them back.
im just a girl, yet to be 18.
i fantasize, i dream, and i wish.
yet im forced to see this ugly side of the world, or maybe i should say its the real world.
im just a typical pisces girl- fragile.
and please dont enter my world leaving just words that touch my heart and leave.
im always the one staying behind clearing up the shit.
thanks nas for the encouragement when i nearly broke down.
and pardon me people as i have really bad temper now, i just cant control it.
ineedtobuildawalltodefensemyselfnow.
thedialoguewehadiswhatthatkeepsmeongoingnow, andihopethateverythingyou'vesaid,isTRUE.
mylifeforthepast3days`
all i remembered was i met huini, einstein said he saw me, attending lectures for less than one hour everyday, tonnes of homework, all the shitty news, checked out choco phone at fuchun cc area, throwing tantrums, pissed, annoyed, watched daisy but no time for now and forever and shes the man, lastly..
daisymeansHIDDENLOVE.
