more and more coming up on me, friendship, what is that. i did treasure, yet somehow hurt i get.
maybe this is the retribution i get for treating her this way? maybe i was too harsh, maybe i wronged her. i read her blog, and my heart shook. i did spoilt her happiness, with my words. i didnt told her i hate to hear her talk about zy and their past, i didnt told her i hate the way she treated hw in my pov, i didnt told her i hate it when she's replicating what we have or maybe like she said its coincidently, i hate how her words often hurts me deeply, i hate alot of things about her but i never did i told her. i should have, but im always a person who bottle everything up till the day i cant stand it, and this is what that cause the situation right now.
and i'll speak harshly to vent it all out. i know i hurt her, but maybe she didnt realised, that she hurt me all times along. i have to admit she's good to me at times, she would hear to me and help me out. thats all i can say bah, and im not here to gain sympathy from anyone nor am i trying to act. i apologise for my harshness and if i wronged her for the zy's case and saying she treated friends like shit cause it doesnt apply to everyone. but for those that i feel they are facts i'll still keep my stand. a really great apology to hw too, cause the one being hurt the most is him.
for my family; i hope everyone of us will being staying strong tgt, no matter whats happening.
for hq that case; i hope everything is over, im sorry but i guess she wasnt the main reason behind this decision. all the best to you my friend.
for my soulmate; when you told me you couldnt understand me, neither could i understand you or myself too. do well for your major task this year.
for mygirl; this really affects me alot, although we are fine now, but still theres a barrier between us. cause nv did i expected this to happen. but i trust you, i really do. we'll get over it, someday soon i hope.
for thisguy; i feel hopeless that i can help you in no way, i know its painful, i know you're suffering, i'll do anything i if i can. and i'll pray for you to get well soon.
forthebizthing; sorry to all partners, i'll get it started once i get myself up again.
lastlyforthisguyinmyheart; i pray you'll be fine, you must be. and often again and again i wondered whats on your mind, who am i to you. but from today, i'll leave it to you. too much happening and i dont want to get upset over anything again. simply words you've said changed my world. you; keep me ongoing like no one else could.
foreverythingthatiscausingshitinmylife; i had enough, its really enough.
idontneedsympathyortowinyourpitifulvotes;ijustwantmysimplelifeback.
