20 december;
a day out shopping with joce wendy evan and xrui, my sis joined us later.
used to be at loggerheads with my sis but yesterday was a great day spent with her, i never treasure her in the past, and our relationship with each other is worse than normal friends.
and this thought came to my mind when i was with her: if i dont treasure my own family,who else will?
trying harder to bond with my family now, i mean meant to ever take them for granted but at times, one would tend to do so.
went home to change and then out to meet for cycling session, had a hard time borrowing bikes.
star gazed at hilltop with ong joce zigui and alex.
howiwishedthatyouweretheretoo, the night was really beautiful, a night of time i wish to borrow from you.
came home ard 2am first, got to catch some sleep before work.
21 december;
a day out with the carefree guys, islerx girls had to rush back for puiman's school registeration but couldnt join in.
caught midnight sun, its really really a great movie.
and as goodbyedays is played..
if you understand me, you'll know..
some unhappy stuff happened, and i guess i din mean to flare up at them, but its really upsetting, when friends dont seem like friends.
im upset with myself the most, as i know speaking out would only make everyone unhappy.
i hate avoidance, and im strightforward, pardon my character if you do.
idontknowwhy, ijustdontknow.
if you understand what my worst fear is and how i dread history repeating itself.
i thought you knew how badly i fell, but yet again.
im back to square, and im back to the past, congrats me if you do.
takeawaymyfear,please..
or is it because i din do enough yet, i might not like how the leading actor in midnight sun can do for love, but for everytime, i tried to give what i can.
i dont want christmas this year.
