insomnia.
insomnia.
insomnia.
INSOMNIA.
this is pestering me every single night, it's not like i didn't try to turn in early, i'll just end up waking up in the mid of the night without fail.
i watch the sky turns bright, before i can get some sleep.
i've been missing lectures, it's something i wouldn't want to.
but i could hardly catch up with the lessons now, nor do i have the energy to travel to and fro school.
with irregular sleeping hours and time, my temper is getting worse and with all the stress, problems and non-understanding from some, i feel so out of control.
it is hell. i could finally feel how mom feels like.
not sleeping kills, not physically, but mentally.
my days and nights are swapped.
i'm leading a night life now.
prehaps it's high time i break free from everything, i need a long break.
prehaps simple things like kite-flying and cycling would help,
prehaps i need to see a psychologist, prehaps a short visit overseas would help..
prehaps..
i feel so inferior of myself, prehaps i'm good for nothing.
stop wasting the grains on Earth.
