i feel like a weakling, this is not right.
i shouldn't be.
so i guess she did read the previous post- good or bad sign?
my navel piercing is giving me problems and i have to urge to give it up.
human are dumb, spend money to give themselves pain.
i am not feeling so alright now, there a weird feeling in me.
have i really gave up?
there's this emptiness in me, i feel like a lost soul. i don't know what i want, i don't want what makes me happy anymore.
and i know, i've changed.
i can no longer interact with people like i used to, i no longer open up to them.
who knows my littlest secrets?
for all along, i kept my mouth and heart shut.
i kept quiet, pretend and ignore but.
i am not feel alright.
not alright at all.
i feel empty, so empty that it scares me too.
suddenly.
i dont believe in love anymore.
is marriage out of true love or dependence on the othe person?
what is love, when you habour high materialistic expectations like the monthly salary of your future husband before you even consider about being with him?
what is love, when you set criterials about how your boyfriend should look and how he should be dressed like?
A could do all the sweetest things a guy could ever do for you, yet all you have in return for him is a smile and thank you.
B could just bring you on for a dinner and walk you home but in your eyes, he's the sweetest guy you've even met and wanted.
morale of the story: life's unfair? this is love? there is no rights or wrongs in love?
well, i don't know whats the morale but this is reality.
i could everything i could for you, but in your heart i am only a smile-to-and-say-thanks friend.
whether you admit or not, everyone needs to be loved.
it's not about being despo or not, it's the sense of assurance, being needed and cared for we are after.
so yes, i need some love.
