a j a a j a . FIGHTING

2007-10-08T00:02:00.001+08:00

Goodbye Blogspot,

I have shifted to http://dsly.wordpress.com/.

2007-10-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

It's a Chuck & Larry evening with Sam and Jocelyn.
Cute japanese priest.
Out with mom to Vista Point in the mid of the night for snack, total coolness + fatness.

Need to hunt for a job and start reading.
Go.

Back.
Regret.
Move on.

2007-10-07T00:02:00.001+08:00

鎖匙心測

假設你無意中撿到一個真皮名牌鎖匙包，打開一看，裡面一共有五支鎖匙，

一支是車鎖匙，你覺得自己是在什麼樣的情況下撿到的呢？

A. 浪漫的黃昏海邊，在你漫步的柔細白晰沙灘上。

B. 在你搭往東部洗溫泉的火車座位上。

C. 人聲鼎沸，摩肩擦踵的量販大賣場，就在你最愛吃的餅乾旁邊。

D.在東區高級成衣的試衣間，乳白色的埃及棉沙發上。

E. 熱鬧雜亂的夜市，等了好久才排到的藥燉排骨攤位上。

這個測驗是看你自己的愛情穩定度，當你遇到一個理想程度百分之八十五的情人時，你會當機立斷定下來，還是會繼續在愛情的冒險路上探險，或者偷偷存好幾個備份情人呢？

A. 你的情海之路，就像大海那樣廣闊無涯，充滿奇蹟異想，但也有殘酷無情之處。

茫茫大海當中，何處是你的落腳之處呢？是一個熱情的南方小島，還是一個豐沃的大洲呢？

但你就像是一葉扁舟，還在期待那個不可能的港口呢！抱持著這種心態的你，

是很難真的定下來，也不願意付出全部的。

B.其實你的每一段戀情都是你的真愛，拿出全心全意，掏心挖肺，

從答應在一起的那天起，你大概連兩個人的骨灰要怎麼放在一起都盤算好了，

但是這趟旅程到底會不會走到終點則不一定了。

你是每一段戀情中的貞節烈女，不知道會走多久。

C. 論壇其實你自己也知道這次大概是玩真的，

心裡面偷偷的想這個人就是我這輩子睡的最後一個人喔。

沒錯，你其實已經準備好嫁為人婦，就此收山囉。

沒關係.二十一世紀的新婦人絕對可以婚後照樣揮灑青春，活出自我的。

D. 你是那種出門就高興，眼睛看不完，兩手抓不夠，滿口吃不夠的人。

沒有備份會引發你的超級不安感覺，拿起電話如果不知打給誰的情境.會讓你半夜也驚醒，

所以就算你找到今生真命天子，白馬王子，但你還是會找備份的，

沒關係啊，一人一種命，只要活的開心就好。

E. 你的穩定度其實不錯，但這並不是你天生如此，而是你真的很懶，

只要有固定的伴，論壇你就開始蹺腳看電視，把所有的行頭束之高閣，

當然更不會花心思去找別的伴了，除非有人可以從你那泛黃起毛球的運動衣，

微帶眼屎的眼睛中看出你是絕世美女來追你，那你才有可能死湖起心波。

神准.

2007-10-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

歌名:爱在离别时
演唱:永邦
<爱,在离别时>主题曲
歌词编制:毅 benny

失去后才珍惜还有什么意义
还是会有人不肯去忘记
忘不了那一段回忆
刹那间他开始怀疑
自己的命运像一场电影
不断在重复上映
抓不住的情绪
逃不了的陷阱
凌乱的心情
这样纠缠下去
该怎么抚平

爱总是在离别之前
让每个人能看清一点
犯下的错该如何放下
该如何放手
再怎么去挽回
一道裂痕隐隐约约的掠过

失去后才珍惜还有什么意义
还是会有人不肯去忘记
忘不了那一段回忆
刹那间他开始怀疑
自己的命运像一场电影
不断在重复上映
抓不住的情绪
逃不了的陷阱
凌乱的心情
这样纠缠下去该怎么抚平

爱总是在离别之前
让每个人能看清一点
犯下的错该如何放下
该如何放手再怎么去挽回
一道裂痕隐隐约约的掠过

Time.

2007-10-05T14:34:00.000+08:00

越来越懂自己还是对自己越来越不了解？

唯一的是我已经变了―不再相信爱会永远

心虽然依然跳动　但已失去了小鹿乱撞的feel

没有了心动　带来的却是伤害与心碎

这样的我―我恨，很恨

每天沉睡　期待睡醒时发现所有的错只发生在梦里

还我本来的俐云

她去了哪里？

我很想她

2007-10-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

I'm glad I talked to 585#03 today again, why didn't you bring me along?
Happy birthday Tan Uncle.

Today is a pretty nice day, I went to Vista Point to get some groceries and my honey stars.
Met wade @ Causeway point in the evening for his dinner and I got my cheesecake for I have a super strong crave for fine cakes since yesterday.
Thanks him for helping me to borrow my book and I almost fell aleep when reading as my bed is too seductive to resist.
Simple day; getting so used to staying @ house.
I am a housechild.

ponder; Life does change
I am reading China Chic from Vivenne Tam.

2007-10-03T10:34:00.000+08:00

10.02 am in the morning and an sms from TP woke me up

I seriously hope this is just another dream of mine, I feel shattered

No As, no Bs this time round

Only fucking Cs and a fucked-up F

I deserve it, so much for missing school and fooling around

So much ifs in my mind

This is a waking point

If I dont push harder, i'll go home as a loser

I dont want to pack up & go home, I'll brace myself up

I wont let myself rot on

How much hardwork and attendence would be reflected in the result slip

I'll see me with As and Bs next semester

Start working hard. NOW.

Hit the library today.

This is a painful reminder-leeyun

2007-10-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

SO GLAD you called you know, so this is how much used I am having you around
You ah you, better take good care of yourself hor!
I've never thought i'll miss you this much la
LOVES!

I miss the G's especially SHIWEI, for he always accept my bullies without fail
& prehaps I have a little more understanding towards cherish, even if just a veryveryvery small little more

2007-09-29T13:40:00.001+08:00

Seems like everyone's going missing
Or maybe is me who rely on them too much?

Prehaps I get to used to press the level 3 button on the lift, walk towards joce's apartment, open the door on myself and sit on her bed.
Pretty worried and surprised when I cant get through her cellphone, but I know she needs a short retreat for herself, one she always needed over all these time.
But i hope, if you ever read this, do take care of yourself and i'll see the old you again.
Misses-

Time for some independence- dawn.

2007-09-29T13:40:00.000+08:00

Got to keep this blog updated as often as possible
I guess i am seriously addicted to online shopping, it just wont stop
Got to save some moolahs

Joce's bbq is on later, someone nice kindly bbq for wade & me please
& Joce, wouldn't some curry powder + flour be nice? (=

SO dead now
clothes to send for alteration, money to be transferred
.. and .. andand ..

Good/ Bad news
another month of hols to go, good or bad?
NEEDS A JOB!

2007-09-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

I've decided that this blog should be back.
First step to face everyone again.
Hi leeyun.

2007-09-20T00:58:00.000+08:00

在我身体里的灵魂是谁?

2007-09-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

Unchanged blogskin and song for months but still loving this song.
And hola it's 11 september but nothing special happened.
Hurray that Pcomd comes to an end and submission is on thurs for Entec so tomorrow would be a pretty free day (except the fact that i haven not done my final assignment) and my i just realised my 2 week holiday would start from friday!
CHEERS!
I am always a happy ass when it comes to holiday.
Prehaps some suntanning would be good BUT MY FATS GOT TO GO FIRST.
The urge to eat is always there, gosh.

Finding it back, prehaps you could help

2007-09-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

我们都不知道月下老人他绑的那条红线谁才是另一端的人，

所以先来后到这个道理其实没有所谓的第三者。
Something i heard from a variety show that prehaps is worth a penny of your thought

Welcome 11 september, supposedly one of my favourite days of the year
and say hi to hot soup, i'm dipping myself into it
Sup to trouble, it's here looking for me
and not to forget to Yo to deepshit, i'll be submerging into it after the hot soup spa.

My actions are not agreeing with my thoughts now
Prehaps Jayden's right bout my zombie-ing today
I practically dazed from start of meeting till end of entec lecture
I thought i heard someone calling me yet i didn't react until i reached my queue at the bus interchange, turning my head to realise it was cheecheng who called me
It's always great to see old friends be it if we still talk to each other

There is something weird happening inside me
beyond what words can

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A but crack doesn't has feelings, I am a butt crack.

2007-09-09T08:20:00.000+08:00

I am so bored that i decided to blog but i got no idea what to write so please tell me what to write or this entry is just a piece of crap which i wrote out of randomnesss and boredom and it is a beautiful sunday so i doubt you would want to read craps but nothing is coming out of my mind others than rubbish so get me something to do or write or this will never end and when it doesnt end you cant stop reading however if you want to click on the small box at the top right hand corner of your window please feel free to do so as part of me is trying to reach for the mouse and click on it too hence without a doubt you can see how dumb and meaningless this post is except it tells you how bored i really am so..

Okay, stopping my never ending bullshitting skill
Ratatouille was good, so next up will be Dawnatouille
1408's storyline is a BOO but that's parts with are kinda scary

I can't stop singing so feel free to call me if you want to listen to the train song which i doubt anyone would want to hear but nevertheless if you want to hear some voices you may call and listen to my voicemail where the lady goes "the subscriber's mobile phone is currently unavailable..."
I am talking like a TOOT now
GONE!

Back.
oh it's 9 september~
GONE AGAIN.

2007-09-07T03:20:00.000+08:00

3.25 am
Still working on our project @ melinda's house, my second night burning the petrol ( sounds better than burning midnight oil)
rushed home to have dinner & packed my stuff
was damn hilarious when i headed from wdls to her house which is near east coast park, so afraid i would lose my way or take the wrong bus.
bought honey stars & red bull to keep myself awake
HOHO
Eunice's suggesting we go watch the sunrise later @ 6
TIRED!

2007-09-04T13:34:00.001+08:00

so i am just like some dumbass out there, thinking that i've gotten a great deal for a modelling job and got so excited over it.
I am feeling so dumb and pissed off now, majority of these feelings is because of my dumbness and naiveness. Oh god, I feel so much like giving myself a tight slap now, I was like a despo kid jumping at the littlest chance and habouring un-needed thoughts.
Damn and i blew up at the demand which i think was over my limits, when like bestfriend said why should i be so worked up in the first place. and all these boiled down to me being too naive and excited about the bait thrown to me.
i seriously got to thank bestfriend for waking me up.
Am going to water my pea brain and let it grows, & i need to find back my composure!

2007-09-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

I believe when you said things like she should... that's so bad of her to treat whoever-it-is this way.. The very next time, it would be your time experiencing the same situation.
Sounds weird though.

So i searched high and low for the missing backcover of my cellphone but to no avail.
Wasted my bucks changin a new set and TADAH it's white now.
Gonna love it for a few days, hoho.

Movie marathon at angkukueh's house; 9.56, scary movie 4 && Mr Bean's holiday.
All of them aint that nice, but i've got the urge for horror movies!

I need to fitter and slimmer body but my mind and stomach are too wild to be controlled,
no more food temptations from all please!!
but i just swallowed two (ninestorey kueh)* pardon my language

i realised that my topics in my post are inrelevent and non-linking.
SO, hello night.
time to hit the bed

2007-09-01T13:34:00.002+08:00

ho perso la fede nell'amore

please be back, i want to feel like a human
.
meeting joce for supper in some minutes' time
Hello night.

2007-09-01T13:34:00.001+08:00

Pisces (February 19 - March 20)

Your September Horoscope by Susan Miller
read yours @http://www.astrologyzone.com/main.html

You are now at your half-birthday. Each September, the Sun is positioned 180 degrees away from your sign on the old, creaky horoscope wheel. That is as far as the Sun will go before it loops back to begin its six-month journey back to Pisces. Until then, deprived of the Sun's comforting warmth, September is always your personal "winter." You may feel a bit alone, without the warm support of a partner or other staunch ally to help you. This only lasts for a few weeks, but you may notice it a little more this month.

Partners that you rely on will seem somewhat oblivious to your needs during the first three weeks of September. Left to your own devices you will have little choice but to roll up your sleeves and do things for yourself. You will soon see that you are perfectly capable of taking good care of yourself. As they say, "Time waits for no man" - certainly not for an energetic Pisces.

There is always a plus to any situation and in your case, you will be able to take all the credit later when your decisions prove to be right. In addition, others can't say you didn't earn your success, because it will be obvious that you did. If you do work with one or two partners, they will have the upper hand this month, so you will have to be a bit more conciliatory and cooperative than usual.

Pisces deals well with both ambiguity and solitude, so while facts will be in as short supply as help from others, you will be perfectly equipped to deal with the situation. Other signs often crumble in times like these, but the little Fish has fierce survival instincts. You are able to sense the smallest ripple in the waters near you, so if you sense any trouble advancing, you are the first to swim to a warmer, safer part of the ocean well in advance of other creatures. Don't underestimate your well-honed instincts - it is the secret of your success.

Saturn will move into Virgo for a two-year stay beginning on September 2 and a somewhat wayward solar eclipse will also shake things up on September 11. Until cosmic storms are over, you'll need to sleep with one eye open. Both the eclipse and Saturn will be in the same house and bring up the same type of meditations and discussions. This is no month to hold on to fantasies or illusions, not with so many planets asking you to see things realistically and to deal with difficulties head on.

Of course, you can be as practical, realistic, and analytical as the next person, and you often are, but you don't tend to show this side of yourself to others in an obvious way. As a result, people discount the idea that these qualities exist in you. Now those people will be sorry for having underestimated you. When it comes time to make a decision, you can be stunningly quick, sure and sound in your thinking.

Saturn's position always reveals where new challenges will surface, and for you it will be in your closest partnerships, whether those partnerships are business or personal (marriage) in nature. Saturn in the seventh house is a double-edged sword, bringing the possibility for both bountiful benefits and frustrating difficulties. On the plus side, Saturn can bring amazing stability, support, and rock solid loyalty from a partner. Saturn can also bring wisdom, financial security, and a good sounding board on which to base future decisions. On the minus side, you may find all sorts of areas where you don't see eye to eye.

Not all partnerships will bring you problems, so I want to be clear on that point. With your aspects, one partner might give you reason for pause, but it is not a guarantee, and if you are careful you can avoid all sorts of problems from the start. (This is why we study astrology.) To be safe, be very careful about all new commitments you make or joint ventures you enter into from now on. All your learning experiences will come through partners. If you are setting up a business alliance, check all references first. This is always wise, but now it will become critical to do so. If you are planning to wed, it wouldn't hurt knowing more about your partner's credit rating or family history - it is just being smart.

One committed partner in your life may now need to live separate from you because of a work or study program that requires it, or for other reasons. This person may not be your spouse. For example, you may have an agent you were used to seeing regularly in your city, but your agent may have to move away to be closer to family, say, to help an ill relative. In the future, you will converse with her on the telephone instead. Again, this seems temporary, so don't be blue about it.

OK, I will admit that it's also possible that the obvious will occur, that you'll encounter troubling irreconcilable differences between you and your romantic partner and announce temporary or permanent separation. That is only one of many possibilities, so don't be frightened by that, nor let that make you too negative. There is no destiny here - if you love your partner, then suggest that you work together to iron out difficulties before they grow larger. Early-born Pisces with February birthdays will feel this trend first, although all Pisces will have a turn at it.
If you are older and remember the last time Saturn was in Virgo 1977-1980 (assuming you were older than say, 18) you may have already learned most of Saturn's lessons and will breeze through this period fairly easily. Saturn tends to have a stronger influence when we are young, although if we don't learn all the lessons Saturn hopes to teach us then, we are doomed to experience the same issues again later, on Saturn's second go-round 29 years later. We only get three visits from Saturn in one house of the horoscope in our lifetime, as it takes 29 years for Saturn to circle the Sun (and the zodiac).

If you were born during those years, 1977-1980, and you know you have Saturn in Virgo, you will also deal well with this upcoming trend because you will be familiar with Saturn in this position. You are about to have your "Saturn return" and will crave stability and commitment, and actually, it will be a good time to make a commitment, such as marriage, assuming you know your intended partner well.

There is another way this aspect may work out. Instead of not getting along with your partner, you may become very concerned about the welfare of your partner. In this application of Saturn in Virgo, you may be called on to support your partner through a crisis. Your partner may be ill or going through a difficult time at work, and you'll want to be there to offer ideas, advice, and lots of good cheer. This is a common application of this aspect, and one in which Pisces is uniquely qualified to fill.

Eclipses are famous for stirring things up, bringing unexpected developments, and for testing one's resourcefulness. Just in case you don't notice that Saturn is moving into your partnership sector, we have a solar eclipse due in the very same house, on September 11.
If you have business partners, you may find in coming months that your partners are very critical and exacting types, especially when it comes to money. Or, they may be very conservative and unable to step with the times. In either of these cases, you will have to prove to them your worth, while also helping them see the value of updating their thinking.
With Uranus on your Sun, you will want to move forward with vigor, eschewing tradition, but the partners you seem to be attracting now will not be so brave. This is not necessarily a bad thing, however, because the dynamic tension that results could produce precisely the right balance between you. Your partners will hold you back from moving too fast and from being too radical, while you will help them by showing innovative ways of thinking and by informing them of current trends.

The eclipse of September 11 will open a door for your partnership, so if you are dating and serious about your partner, you may get engaged or even married this month. Big life decisions happen at eclipse time, so if you do see a big development in your personal life, that would certainly seem right. You may alternatively be interested in forming an important contractual relationship with a new business partner.

Pisces who were born on March 8 or within five days of this date will feel the effects of this solar eclipse most.

Although not all things will go exactly as planned this month, especially near September 9 and 11, you seem not to see this as a disadvantage. Rather you may see what goes on as an opportunity to break burdensome bonds that have held you back. Cutting off debilitating partnerships and contractual agreements will allow you to pursue a better situation, one more suited to you. You'll surprise others with your confident, swift, and decisive style that you'll present. If anyone assumed you'd be a pushover, or content to follow an old script, they'll be sorry, for you are about to wake them up!

You may also need to give your attention to a residential or family situation this month. Mars is still moving through your home and family sector, suggesting that you may aim to buy, sell, or lease a space, or fix up your space in an exciting way. Alternatively, you may be busy helping a family member at some point during September.

Whatever domestic plan you have - and it may have begun as long ago as mid-June - try to hurry your project along to conclusion by month's end. Once Mars leaves your home sector on September 28, you won't be as focused on domestic concerns. This part of life will recede in importance as other parts begin to vie for your attention.

There is another reason to keep moving forward this month. Mercury will go retrograde from October 11 to 31, making everything a little harder to navigate in October. Delays, miscommunications, forgetfulness, and other mishaps tend to happen when Mercury is retrograde. This planet rules communication, transportation, negotiation, commerce, and contracts, and these are areas that will bring difficulties next month. It would not be wise to buy anything expensive (and that includes a house or furniture), nor to make any key announcements.

Also, do NOT to buy any electronics in October as Mercury rules moving parts, and when retrograde, problems tend to arise. Don't insert new software either. Even though Mercury will not retrograde until October 11, you will feel the effects earlier - all month. You will want to stay far away from this aspect as possible!

I always advise not to sign contracts when Mercury is retrograde, nor to agree to announce any big life decisions. Still, some readers write to ask, "Can I just shake hands on a new job when Mercury is retrograde? I am not signing a contract, so is that OK?" Alas, the answer is no. Nothing works when Mercury is retrograde, so verbal agreements are also a no-no.
My younger daughter Diana signed her lease on her cottage when she moved to West Hollywood during Mercury retrograde a while back, much to my horror. Before the lease was up, the landlord sold the property, and she had to move, quite unexpectedly. She learned about the sold property during a subsequent retrograde period, and she moved, within weeks. Luckily she found a sweet space she loved, but she had the right aspects to apartment hunt, by some miracle. No one is able to duck the problem of Mercury retrograde, so don't take chances if you don't have to!

All month, keep an eye on your health, dear Pisces, as eclipses bring on draining events. Sometimes eclipses also bring out medical problems that you should address quickly. If you note a concern, call a doctor or dentist to nip it in the bud. Schedule checkups just after the solar eclipse, September 11.

Saturn, now in Virgo, will drain your calcium reserves and could also bring problems with digestion. You might want to switch to more bland foods when you are in a stressful situation. You may also need to take calcium tablets and a multi-vitamin, so ask your doctor if she agrees.
You'll be busy all month, for it looks like there will be a change of assignment or personnel in your immediate working areas causing the need for adjustments in work flow. Someone may be "eclipsed out" of your office just after September 11 - a coworker or subordinate may suddenly announce a departure. If so, you'll have to pick up the slack, and that means longer hours, but just for a while until a new recruit can be hired.

All in all, September is due to be a topsy-turvy month where you'll have to come up with many solutions. Still, you've been through a number of eclipses in Virgo before, so you will be able to handle things quite well. Once we get to February 21, 2008, all the eclipses in your sign and opposite sign of Virgo will be over. Hooray!

Even though there may be small changes on the job, your career will thrive brilliantly, so much so that you may be struck by the enormity of life's contrasts. A case in point will be Pluto's turn direct on September 7, a change in orbit that will bring enormous energy to your career. Progress should be very obvious near that date!

New projects as well as business relationships that you've been eager to forge have probably shown little or no progress over the past five months. All that will change with the move of Pluto to direct speed on September 7. Pluto is now in your tenth house of honors, awards, achievement, and fame, so the news you get from now on should be substantial, allowing you to advance to the next phase rapidly. You may get publicity now too, and all the reviews will be positive!

Saturn's supportive angle to Jupiter will be another sign that all things are possible if your dreams are big enough and your passion for your endeavor deep enough. Keep your eye on the days that circle September 7 for a stunning professional breakthrough!

At the full moon, September 26, money matters will require attention. You may receive a check due to you, hear about a raise, or be offered a new job. It's also possible that you will have to pay a large bill or that an expense you had not anticipated will come up. The best way this full moon may work out is that you will buy something madly expensive that you've wanted a long time. Cross your fingers that it's the latter!

Speaking of money, if you work on commission or receive royalties, or are seeking venture capital, a business loan, or mortgage (as some examples), you were hampered by Venus being retrograde over the past two months. No matter how persuasive your argument to the people in charge, you probably came out of meetings depressed and empty-handed. Now you will more likely get the money you need, once Venus goes direct on September 8. Watch the days around that day for special luck!

Venus won't go retrograde anytime soon again, so you are truly looking at a better situation if you need to raise money or get the right settlement from an insurance company, or in a divorce or other negotiation.

Romantically, you are about to receive some of the very best aspects for love that you've have had in years. (When was the last time I have said anything like that? Never!) Mars, the planet of energy and light, will move into your true love sector for months, and bring Pisces a plethora of opportunity to enjoy love, affection, and so much more fun!

Usually Mars visits a sign for seven weeks, but soon Mars will do something very unusual by remaining in this part of your chart for over six months! Mars will help you until May 9, 2007 - that's A LOT of help from Mars!

Part of Mars' plan will be to bring out your charm and magnetism, so as you move through this period, which will include the holiday season, you will have to get used to the fuss. Others will find you irresistible! If you are single and break up with someone, it looks like the universe will quickly get you back in circulation and that you will have no trouble meeting new romantic interests.

Attached Pisces may also enjoy this trend, for you will have more fun together. If you have wanted a baby, this period - from September 28, 2007 to May 9, 2008 - would be your best time to try. Mars will be retrograde during part of this period, so you may find that Mars is a tad less helpful for helping you conceive during that phase, from November 15 to January 31.
Creativity is important to you, always, for Pisces is THE creative sign. With Mars trained on your fifth house of true love for months, your creativity will benefit too, for creative efforts are covered by the very same part of your chart. Ideas will come easily and you'll impress those who pay you for your ideas. If you are self-employed and in a creative business, the competition will have a great deal to be worried about! You'll be a virtual idea factory and catching up with you will be nearly impossible!

Summary
Ever since Saturn entered your house of day-to-day work assignments in July 2005, you've worked very hard. Your company may have instituted cutbacks, so with less staff, you probably had to do the work of two. If you were self-employed, you might not have been able to afford to hire all the help you needed. The positive side to this is that you learned to become very efficient and productive. The downside is that at times, you may have felt exhausted!
Now Saturn leaves this part of your chart on September 2 and the picture will brighten - you will enjoy the fruits of your labors without so much day-to-day struggle. The working conditions are about to improve and a plum assignment may come up any day now. You will find it easier to find good help, and so generally, your day-to-day work environment should improve.
Saturn will move into Virgo on the same day, September 2, and at that time you will begin a long process of reassessment of all close contractual relationships. That includes your marriage if you are wed, and your close partners in business. By making commitments, you will become more seasoned and mature, and through the feedback of a partner, you will see yourself in a new light.
If your birthday falls at the end of February, you have already begun to see this trend even before Saturn arrived, as the degrees of Saturn were already close enough for you to pick up the vibes. Perhaps you will say that you have already learned a thing or two about partnerships.
You may have to help a partner who is going through a hard time, or you may find your partner has become needy or cranky. It will be up to you to find out why.

Saturn can bring either stability or frustration. To be sure your alliances go well, know your partner before you commit. If you are already part of a partnership, keep asking questions to be sure you know what your partner is thinking.

If a relationship is faltering, but you love your partner, you will need to address problems directly or risk seeing difficulties grow in time. Start now, and listen to your partner closely - you may pick up subtle signs of certain concerns that are not being voiced by your partner.
The eclipse on September 11 will offer you an opportunity to make a new partnership or to leave a difficult one. All solar eclipses open a door, but because Uranus will oppose the Sun at the time, you may hear some career news that causes you to scramble. No problem - you are getting good at these things.

Moreover, with Pluto and Venus turning direct on September 7 and 8 respectively, you are about to hit the top of the charts professionally. Lots of publicity and a chance to move up the ladder with a promotion or new client will happen near those dates and in months ahead.
The money you need to make your dream a reality will also come through. No matter what problems you may encounter this month, looking at the big, long-range picture, you seem untouchable. There seems to be nothing you can't overcome, and others will be in awe of you in motion.

Keep in mind that by early December you will be sitting on top of the world, with staggeringly important career developments due that will show you that you've been on the right track all along.

This month, due to the eclipse September 11, you would be wise to watch your health. If anything comes up, go for medical or dental advice without delay. A lot will be demanded of you in September, but as you get to the end of the month, things will seem easier.
At month's end, a financial matter will come up, and will require your attention, on or near September 26.

If you are working on your home, or want to move, you will have Mars help you throughout September. You will have to have things wrapped up by September 28, however, as Mars will leave this part of your chart and your attention and interest on home improvements will be drawn elsewhere.

After September 28, 2007, and continuing until May 9, 2008, you will enter into one of your most enchanting, romantic periods in recent years. It will provide the perfect counterpoint to your blossoming career.

Dear Pisces, although you'll have to get over a few speed bumps this month - mainly involving partners - you can handle all that comes up. You are sweeping out the cobwebs of your life, and what will be left will be what matters most to you. You are heading in the right direction, and that will be obvious very soon! !

2007-09-01T13:34:00.000+08:00

你變了! 沉重的一句話!　　　　　　　　　　
不要因為環境而改變了原本單純的你　　　　　　　　　　　　　
一但變了!你就不再可愛　　　　　　　　　　　　　　
不再值得人愛了!!!
-quoted from Xiaogui's blog

I don't like the me now but this is still me
contradicting like a pool of shit
full attendance for my keypad now but it's the key7's turn which is giving me problem
& the back cover for my cellphone goes missing, what a great luck
i seriously think it is trying to play hide & seek with me, angry!

idkwiw, gsmtw

2007-08-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

Back in action after few days of hibernation
Life's good, shopped till i'm broke and ate till i'm fat
except for one night when my gastric pain came knocking on my stomach
and another when i heard too much ghost tales
Gutless people always love to listen to ghost tales, don't you agree with the one here?

The rest are having or will be having their long break soon, while i got to attend school
came my sweetness before this bitterness, why is my timetable so different!
but i have been good telling myself to go school regularly
I love pepsi for always encouraging me to go to school, except for the part when she always call me ahlian

So i woke up early today despite the afternoon class was cancelled, just to be good and attend group meeting
was on my way when eunice texted me to inform that meeting's cancelled as the rest did not want to meet anymore
So i got trapped at a bus stop for an hour due to the heavy pour until someone nice came to rescue me
BIG BIG Thank You!

la-

2007-08-25T13:29:00.000+08:00

Self declared my day off on friday and had a studying + projecting session at sy's house
I was good as i completed some parts of my assignment
& jolin's 地才makes me wanna dance!
Okay, my words are always louder than actions
But sy can dance 舞娘 already, HOHO

Supper session with the girls @ night, before xhui's vietnam trip which she sets off today for
She should have reached there by now
9 days before she's back, count down count down
some gossiping & chatting is always needed for entertainment
and it's never enough for people like me
i LOVE gossips

separated ways & i touched yt's boobs before we parted ways
and i got my retribution back
cycled & slacked
but i guess my diet for the day was improper which caused me pain
I had:
Nuggets & scrambled eggs for breakfast
Soya bean milk, red bean icecream & kueh Tutu for lunch
Bobo Chacha for dinner
and Toasted bread for supper
holy hell!

but friends & sister were good, hundred of loves to them!

It's a beautiful Saturday but i am here in the house, bored can!
):

2007-08-22T13:48:00.000+08:00

Thanks million to Jocelyn for she risked her laptop's precious life and lend it to me to bring to school
Luckily my worry that her lappy will be drenched on the way to school is proved redundant
But I think I am seriously dumb
Have you heard of people who vacuumed the keypads along with the dust on her laptop?
If you have not then i can assure you that you know one of those idiots now
I have a date with mom to dig out my keypads tonight ( from the dust bag of the vacuum cleaner)

P.S: I am a good girl for i'm attending school today

BUT
4 more hours before i can go home! OH MAMMY!

2007-08-20T22:51:00.000+08:00

Here comes the random game

tagged by SAM

1. 如意油 is my favourite perfume now

2. I have phobia for height and things that hover over my head

3. My double eyelids are fake

4. I talk in my sleep at times and I know about it

5. Nobody is allowed to look into my eyes yet

6. I love to play with others' earlobe before I sleep

7. I hate my donald duck-like mouth, seriously hate

8. I used to drip one of the ends of my chouchou(littleblanket) in milo and smell to sleep

9. I am straight but I ogle @ girls more than i do for guys

10. I have a pair of size38 feet

11. I think bra is a troublesome thing but we are need it

those tagged: Everyone who visits this bloody blog of mine!! (:

NO LAUGHING!

_______________________________________

I want nothing but the best for her

2007-08-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

declaration:

from the start of 17 august 2007, the angel side of leeyun would be taking leave till god-knows-when.

The evil twin of hers will be taking over her position until further notice, sorry for any inconvience caused.

For enquires, please dial 1800-EVIL-IS-GOOD or her cellphone

regards,

DSLY (evil)

P.S (from goodleeyun):

the evil twin of mine swallow noodles (云吞面)

beware

2007-08-16T00:53:00.000+08:00

it's like waking up on the wrong side of the bed,

everything feels so wrong yet right in place

even the littlest things and the slightest bump by strangers can make me fume

this bad temper really got to go

retail therapy's good

but i see my wallet thinning day by day

may my wallet put on some weight while i slim down

that would be close to prefect

i hope the lot i drew would be true

it would be, i believe

thursday friday saturday sunday.. 4 more days before next block starts

hope i get to enjoy a little

death && departure; the fear never fades

在我最后一次

fame, wealth, love && health.

what are you pursuiting for in your life?

stop

&think

be careful what you wish for

2007-08-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

i made myself sleep till 2.30 in the afternoon
rot around in the house until dad called & said we are going to visit gonggong
the feeling to see him suffer is beyond what words can describe
he's lying there on the bed, barely ate any food for the past days
the service of the nurses is fucking assily bad
&& i wish i could slap that indian nurse tight across the face
as for the guy who is sharing the same ward as my gonggong
i tapped him on the shoulder to make him wake up from his sleep and switch off his bloody hokkien-songs-playing phone
&& i can tell you his snores are thunderous

all i can do is to pray

heard joce fell down when cycling
i hope she'll be alright

bye world, live is so fragile
treasure or regret
you choose

2007-08-14T01:34:00.000+08:00

caught secret again with sw kok & joce
frankly it wouldn't be as exciting and tear jerking as the first time catching it but i still love it as much
&& i happened to see someone with somebody
the truth is it affects me a little
who cares,
i am not going to sit in the middle of the mall & cry out loud like kiddo
but i guess the leeyun in the past would be weeping the bloodyhell out of it
hoho

i seem to be very honest about my feelings today
good or bad?

yesterday was a SUPER UNLUCKY day for me
the M department store's (okay i don't want to get sued so let's name it this way) staff chased me back home during work as they say my dressing was improper
and they sounded like i am a slut && would treat the kids the wrong things
hey, come on la, the kids are super vulgar
and they can already scold all the $^@!#!&&*% without me teaching them
i think they were the ones teaching me the bad stuff
when leeyun the innocent kid was working there
& i nearly lost my promoter pass but luckily i found it at the used-to-be-mine counter this afternoon
my gonggong's in hospital && i seriously don't know what i can do for him other than to pray

but there are always things that can cheer me up, sy kok & joce bought me the bindeez toy i've been eyeing for!
<3 si them le!
&& what the fengshun shifu says about me makes me more certain of my future in the design industry

alright, too tired to type on, night world!

2007-08-12T14:39:00.000+08:00

First sight marks one's destiny.

memo
1. thanks to sy, kok & sw i managed to catch National day's firework at Causeway point despite
i was working && its an unforgettable one for you'd see people walking past

2. thanks to wq && i got to watch the fireworks again, fresh from oven

3. thanks to all who came to visit me ( like i am in jail ) && accompanied me for dinner and
home

4. met jinghui's friends, agnes && cindy and i became their jiejie

5. saw a super handsome boy with his hair all spiked up

6. dinner+supper with G force

7. yang's on the plane heading to taiwan

8. tomorrow, or should i say later is the last day of work for me

9. i am very happy because tomorrow is the last day

10. i am very upset because i m working on a beautiful sunday!

11. peter parker is pronounced dead && welcome the new member peter parker2

12. kids can be super annoying especially those boys i met @ work, they just cant stop shouting
& spurting vulgarities

skip no.13, i dont like

14. i dont know what else to write, so.. bye.

15. too bored so i decided to continue my randomness. i am seriously crazy over online shopping
but the sane side of me is holding me back

16. i hope i can use a fork to poke the evil people to death

17. sy blushes at this sentense- too hot!

18. i want to play with the lego at sw's house

19. can good time shopping && catch secret again woul be prefect!

20. alright, end of random-ing. someone please play random with me

mybad

2007-08-10T14:39:00.000+08:00

ibastard
坏人
i should vanish.

i bring only sorrow and misery
all&you
please
hate me

2007-08-07T14:39:00.000+08:00

BIG BIG THANKS to jocelyn for replacing me for work yesterday
LOVE!

to bugis with weiqiang for my shopping spree
pai pai at bugis for family && friends
safety && health comes first

caught secret to celebrate
thumbs and big toes up!
i want to catch it again&again

skip the rest of the details, worked today
as usual bored like shit
thanks to those who drop by & accompany me for break

&& SIM LEE YUN
you suck big time
think&speak
;
I AM A JERK

i kept a secret.. untold.

2007-08-04T02:00:00.000+08:00

same cycle
another day down, countdown to 9 days
7 if i get off for 2 days

i filled tap water instead of boiled water into my cup and took a sip
played the angel's && devil's game and chuckled like mad on my own
finished 5/6 of the whole cheesecake all by myself in three nights
conclusion: i think boredom drives human mad

let's play random!
alright, i am random

thanks for the Gs for come down to have dinner with me
some are sick some got injuried while some got into trouble
let all be sound&&safe & off the baddy luck goes
tian kong bo bi!

sleeping @ 2, thou shall watch me waste my wonderful saturday && lovely sunday working
good night Earth

uneasiness-

2007-08-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

so in the very end i am still working for this holiday
there goes my firework && weekends
10 more days to go
you'll see me in black&white like everyday
they are my favourite colours ( okay, every colour is my fav ) but on everyday basic is boring
thank you to those who visited me today, without them i think i'll die as a loner

But. But.
i am seriously disappointed with what i've heard
if that's the case why called?
hypocrites.
alright, i suck like you think i do
but they got no rights to make me feel angry
prehaps just a little upset, when i thought they appreciated me

&& the sudden crave for intense chemistry yet which has the power to drive each other crazy
kinda sot
good night world, with love

edits/

yingting && pearlyne don't scold me anymore please.

2007-08-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

Cheesecake by kok&sy
something added that i'll can never taste from the cakes sold outside: sincerity&&care

this post is specially for Lim Kok Yuh,

maybe you'll read this, maybe you'll not

all of us thought you went for a walk alone

you came back panting and passed the phone to sy

and when the sound clip was played

i teared

for all the things you've done for us

we'll keep them in mind & heart

thank you

&& to all my best of friends
我们要快乐 !

and we definitely will.

with loves, yours truly

P.S

have you told your loved ones the 3 magical words today?

2007-08-01T14:39:00.001+08:00

Random of the Day

At a food court..

Cashier: May i have your order please?

Leeyun: Yes, please.
Can i have a bowl of ang ku kueh that contains kok kok mee
cooked with 2 pieces of ka zhuah
1 piece of chang ying wrapping 9 pieces of mutton
2 stirred fried whale with chee cheong fun
and lastly a bowl of wugui swimming in wanton soup.
THANKS!

end of random-

2007-08-01T14:39:00.000+08:00

i hope nobody will kill me after viewing this post

Proudly present to you..
*drum rolls please*

THE ISLERX!

No.1 : Ong Hui ni

No. 2: Pearlyne Chee Pei Lin
( please don't kill me IF you even see this)

No.3: Ting Yu Jia, J

No. 4: Ngo Li Yan, julie?
(Alright, she seldom take photos so this is the best i can get)

No. 5: Jocelyn Tan Jing Yi

No. 11: Sim Lee Yun, self proclaimed to be Dawn
( the reason why the number jumps to 11: i like 11)

Back to No. 6: Lim Xiao Hui, Reena

No. 7: Peh Ying Ting
( i swear she looks HOT in this photo)

No. 8: Leung Xue Ying, cheryl

No. 9: Kwa Pei Yin, Pauline

No. 1o: Lau Pui Man, Trish

skip 11.

No. 12: Michelle Lee Mei Xuan
(i help i didn't spell her name wrong)

&& part of G FORCE

No.1 : Shang Ying (housefly)

No. 2: Ang Shi Wei ( ang ku kueh)

No.3: Fun ( i dont know how to spell his full name, chee cheong fun)

No. 4: Lim Qing Yang (yang meh meh)
( i seriously hope he won't kill me)

No. 5: Lee Wei Qiang (ka zhuah)

No.6: Lim Kok Yuh ( kok kok-mian)

No. 7: Toh Zi Gui, Wade (wu gui)

Let me know if you don't like any of the photos, i can re-do.

Cheer up everybody!
with loves, yours truly-

2007-07-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

i am screwing up my life
too straightforward & speaking without thinking
when i don't mean it that way

hjjos
i dont want to change whose life

i don't fucking care about the money, i just want a good break
recharge myself & move on
why do i want to work & make myself miserable
prehaps i don't really need companions like i thought,
i could read some books, learn to weave a sweater or sip on coffee and sit by the roadsie and walk busy people walking by
or maybe pick up my favourite dance, cycle along the midnight streets & chill at somewhere out there wih a good can of beer
this is the life i want, prehaps for the next few weeks i guess
the thought of working really brings me down, though it just some hours spent standing & stoning and you get paid to do so and there's just a BUT in me
freedom is all i need at this very minute
and prehaps soulmates..

i want to whine like a child
scream like a wild kid
stagger & dance like a toddler

it's always about me & my thinking
i assumed i know what i want
then why am i uncertain about everything i do
why i couldn't even tell what's bothering inside and eating me up?
& the feel i'm after is killing and doing harm on us

P.S: sim lee yun, start asking yourself what you really want.

is this a cycle?

2007-07-27T14:39:00.000+08:00

我不是你的晴空，但我可以做你的清晨。- this was my thinking back then.

新东恩；这才发现水迷宫要和对的人一起走。- this is the new dongen, with new pov.

This is a super old photo
my hair look super coarse, but still i miss the length and fringe

yesterday morning was hell-ish
i rolled and tossed on bed till morning and just when i was about to fall asleep, the construction site started producing irritating noise
dont you think it's ultra weird that the site started its construction like a year back yet you dont see anything building upwards, as in when you look into the site, you see NOTHING except the machinery and workers
and let me tell you how terrible and horrible are the skycrates
when it hovered over my head, though with a few metres above me, i could feel as though the whole crate is going to fall on me and my heart feels as though its going to stop any moment,
and i swear i feel like fainting

however, night was good
went inline skating with the Gs
i fell thrice, pulling mian shifu with me twice
paramedics ( our in house ones) always come to our rescue
i am truly happy that night and i laughed so heartily when i got the answer right for qiang's qian bian wen da ti, the rest couldn't be bothered with my laughing i think
and joce taught me the destressing methods, i am going to steal her psychology textbook tonight

back home and the cycle starts- again.
rolled on bed, stare at com and ate three lao po bing-es and half a bar of chocolates
but it doesn't help
screamed out for SOS to the Gs
i think i depend on them too much, time to kick this dependence

OH GOD, PLEASE LET ME SLEEP!
INSOMNIA IS THE BADDEST THING ON EARTH RIGHT NOW.

i am here thinking to figure out if i should work or not and the construction is starting to produce it's irritating and nerve wrecking noises

and alright, i don't feel like what i used to feel
i'll be going gaga and desperately calling friends to accompany me to the match
but right now, i'm still sane though there's a lil part of me which wish to be there to watch and support as a friend

so the conclusion is: he is almost out of my life.

i so wanna join the girls for shopping trip!
but i've got no money with me at the moment, which is ultra saddening

i think i've wrote alot today, must be the effect of boredom and insufficient sleep
may the machinery shut up soon.

BYE.

2007-07-25T01:28:00.000+08:00

PICTURES TIME!

yujia is so damn cool in the pic, yingting looks unwilling and pyin's sweet! she's giving mic a kiss.

trish's sweet and yingting's roaring!

i love this picture!

but this is the best shot for the group photo.

michelle&&jocelyn

michelle&&liyan

9!

michelle&&jocelyn&&&dawn

yingting's blushing!

michelle&&pauline

michelle&&yingting

michelle&&yujia

michelle&&trish

michelle&&duck

candid, i snapped it when they are not yet ready

duck&&yujia

duck&&blushingqueen

pyramid. gosh, the cheesecake was heavenly!

5!

saw pyin at vista point yesterday and she told me trish michelle and her fell sick the next day after the celebration
poor things, michelle even fainted
jocelyn's sick too and i wonder was it the cockles' fault
damn the cockles
get well soon my girls!

with love,
to Islerx&&G-Force

2007-07-24T13:14:00.000+08:00

define me love & feel

ikytmw,twtaoec
nbetmlapbyd
bwilitf, tfiaasf
idwytbuom, twinw
wcidthy,wcidtlyb,tmpidia
g,smawo..
p..

1+ 1 doesnt always equal to 2..
i always thought the answer is 11

i pray, that the day would never come..

2007-07-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

测你一生会爱几个人
一般来说凭第一反应做比较准哦

Q1.当他/她温柔的看着你，你会说：　　　　

A.你的眼睛大又圆→Q2 　　　　

B.你真好→Q3 　　　　

C.你踩到我的脚了！→Q3 　　　　

D.你想什么呢？→Q2 　　　　　　　　

Q2.当你想念他/她的笑和他/她的吻的时候，你会　　　　

A.打电话给他→Q3 　　　　

B.一个人呆着，练习眨眼睛→Q4 　　　　

C.找好朋友→Q5 　　　　

D.洗衣服→Q3 　　　　　　　　

Q3.喜欢听浪漫伤感情歌吗？　　　　

A.害怕听→Q4 　　　　

B.非常喜欢→Q4 　　　　

C.厌恶→Q5 　　　　

D.还好→Q6 　　　　　　　　

Q4.有种花的习惯吗？　　　　

A.没有→Q5 　　　　

B.有→Q5 　　　　

C.懒惰→Q6 　　　　

D.咱们看下一道题→Q6 　　　　　　　　

Q5.如果朋友送你一只狗，你会：　　　　

A.表面高兴，心里想这家伙害死我了！→Q6 　　　　

B.感到太幸福了，早就想要一只→Q7 　　　　

C.接受的时候就面露尴尬→Q8 　　　　

D.顺其自然→Q9 　　　　　　　　

Q6.如果男生跟你夸他自己的能力有多么强，他自己多么帅，你会认为：　　　　

A.男人都这样→Q7 　　　　

B.他真无聊→Q8 　　　　

C.他挺有意思→Q7 　　　　

D.他喝多了→Q9 　　　　　　　　

Q7.你怎样处理以前情人留下来的东西？　　　　

A.扔掉→Q8 　　　　

B.留着→Q9 　　　　

C.送回或送人→Q9 　　　　

D.砸烂→Q8 　　　　　　　　

Q8.喜欢去麦当劳点什么样的东西？　　　　

A.套餐→Q9 　　　　

B.单点→Q10 　　　　

C.一定要用优惠券→Q9 　　　　

D.不一定→Q11 　　　　　　　　

Q9.喜欢上网做什么？　　　　

A.查信或很简单的事情→Q10 　　　　

B.写文章、灌水→Q11 　　　　

C.狂聊天→Q12 　　　　

D.不喜欢上网→Q11 　　　　　　　　

Q10.信用卡有多少张？　　　　

A.零→Q11 　　　　

B.一张到三张→Q12 　　　　

C.不知道→Q13 　　　　

D.很多吧→Q12 　　　　　　　　

Q11.怎样修理你的头发？　　　　

A.去小发廊→Q12 　　　　

B.自己动手→Q13 　　　　

C.我没有头发→Q12 　　　　

D.找个有品的发馆→Q13 　　　　　　　　

Q12.你的QQ需要身份验证吗？　　　　

A.当然→Q13 　　　　

B.不用→Q14 　　　　

C.你问哪个QQ?→Q15 　　　　

D.不一定或者没QQ，不使用QQ→Q13 　　　　　　　　

Q13.有固定喜欢的明星偶像吗？　　　　

A.曾经→Q14 　　　　

B.有→Q14 　　　　

C.没有→Q15 　　　　

D.很难说清楚→Q16 　　　　　　　　

Q14.当一个人对你说爱你，想象一下你当时的表情会是：　　　　

A.傻笑→Q15 　　　　

B.惊讶→Q16 　　　　

C.无表情→Q15 　　　　

D.诧异→Q16 　　　　　　　　

Q15.去动物园的时候，请你选择以下你比较喜欢去做的事情：　　　　

A.喂动物→Q16 　　　　

B.摸动物→Q17 　　　　

C.咬动物（如果动物园允许的话）→Q17 　　　　

D.吃动物（仅仅允许幻想）→Q16 　　　　　　　　

Q16.你喜欢跟情人怎样相处？　　　　

A.拉着→Q17 　　　　

B.搂着→Q18 　　　　

C.压着→Q19 　　　　

D.未成年不宜→Q18 　　　　　　　　

Q17.累的时候喜欢：　　　　

A.睡觉→Q19 　　　　

B.洗澡→Q20 　　　　

C.被按摩→Q18 　　　　

D.其他→Q19 　　　　　　　　

Q18.当你希望跟一个人一辈子在一起，你会选择以下：　　　　

A. 跟他说→A 　　　　

B. 等他说出来→Q19 　　　　

C.让他跟你说→Q20 　　　　

D.别的方式→Q19 　　　　　　　　

Q19.喜欢爱人跟你撒娇吗？　　　　

A.喜欢跟爱人撒娇→B 　　　　

B.还好吧，能接受→Q20 　　　　

C.笑，一般吧→B 　　　　

D.非常喜欢，觉得这样很可爱→Q20 　　　　　　　　

Q20.当爱人在你面前哭泣：　　　　

A.无奈，不是很喜欢→D 　　　

B.为难，不知道该怎么办→C 　　　　

C.哄他，但自己比较清醒→B

D.跟着心碎→A

A你的真心人永远只是那一个。

不论你再遇见谁，跟谁在一起，也不会对其他人像对那个人般上心。

人很奇怪，没有理由地相遇，没有理由地萌生爱意。

也许爱一个人很简单，总觉得还是他好，还是那个他没有任何毛病。

他在你心中永远完美。就像《东京爱情故事》中的莉香，永远微笑着，成为一个美好的标志。　　

B你的真心人是谁？你一生会有无数的爱人，少则7、8个，多则20几个。

你自己也不知道谁是你的最爱。

也许有的人会被你记住，但记住不代表爱情。

你戏弄红尘，嘲笑爱情，浪逐尘世，也被红尘、爱情、尘世狠狠地报复和惩罚。

应该说这都是你自找的。

你就像《东邪西毒》的欧阳锋一样，渴望知道被人喜欢的感觉是怎样的，结果却伤害了很多人。

现在看到了这个测试结果，你是不是应该考虑回归单纯了呢？

　　

C你会有两个刻骨铭心的爱人，甚至是一段三角恋爱。

你最爱谁？恐怕你也不清楚，一个阶段有一个想法。

这不是你的错误，更不是他们的错误。

当然，也不是我的错误。

爱情这东西，公说公有理，婆说婆有理，说来说去说得谁心里也没有底。

但愿你现在已经离开了那段乱七八糟的经历。

可如果现在还没解脱的话，给你一个建议，别跟随他们中的任何一个。

不够完美的爱情对谁都是一场折磨。

不如从头开始，虽然后来的爱人不再那样爱了，但阳光一样温和的爱情有什么不好呢？　　

D由于你对自由的渴望，恐怕你没有最爱的人吧。

但和你这样的人组成家庭应该是很幸福的，因为你能用超出一般人的眼光来看待事物。

因为你太理性或者太独特，要找到一个和你身心合璧的人也许真的太难了。

可在茫茫人海，谁又能找到真正合适自己的那个人呢？

.
.

i'm A, what's yours?

2007-07-22T13:14:00.000+08:00

你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖

21july
night's out with the girls for mic's birthday celebration
the steamboat and dishes were crappy and oily to the max
but cheesecakes and red wine saved the night, they were fab like heaven-oh-heaven
the best part was the sit-in-a-circle-and-heart-to-heart talks
prehaps not exactly a heart to heart talk but all least we are opening up to each other more than before
i was very straightforward that night, i dont exactly know why
theres the urge to understand them more

ended the night cabbing home with yt and trish, met yang and wq at park before heading back home

22july

dug some out of the house and out with me
spent the evening at J8 and wq's house
i insisted on going to taste the cake, cheesecake is irresistable, like always

.
.

i think this back of mine is breaking into two
simply crazy man, hurts like sh*t
so i guess there's a trend to everything include backache
one pain all pain, yang followed by wq then me

alright, holiday = boring days!
i need:
a job
money
fun
and shopping!
and and
eat!

dont.

2007-07-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

FINALLY.
IT'S OVER-

i am glad this bloody year2 project has come to an end but i feel so empty now
with nothing in mind to think about constantly, nothing to rush over the nights
it just feels empty
many of my coursemates were really giving in their 101% for this project
Pepsi even fainted last night while rushing her work to meet the submission today
weiling and friends didn't even catch a wink throughout the night
and what impresses me the most is Eunice Yeo's passion for this course
i salute to her, seriously
i should have taken a snap shot of her storyboards, the renderings are WOW
she even added a subject when she could enjoy a month of holiday after this block
she is a chiongster!

while i decided to make this coming black a self declared holiday for myself
i am a slacker
year1 i more chiong while they slack, year2 they are chionging when i am seriously nuaning
okay, i am going to chiong for next semester
please remind me of that

i shall get a temporary job, earn a few more bucks and have some fun for the whole month
and the party starts now!

look at my room. yes, my room

that's the look of it after the first night and i got to make use of the platfoam of my bed as my working table, which means..

i had to sleep in the living room

that's the final night..

SUPER messy but not the messiest..

this proves i am really untidy and messy freak.
tested and proved-

QUESTION: is marriage out of true love or dependence?

P.S: it's 20072007

*edited

the room is as good as before, and even more tidy when i stepped into the room
mommy did the job of clearing up the junk for me
love her-
she said i need to curb my temper, but like father like daughter
since young everyone says that i am an exact photocopied piece as my dad, i guess that's very true
same temper same stubborness and same passion for woodwork, yes i like woodwork too
i guess mom really has got alot to tolerate about the three of us at home but she's always been a strong woman
so Chew Ah Suan, actually i love you alot

those who would never ever leave your life is your family

2007-07-17T01:32:00.000+08:00

Deadline for Project2 is postponed till friday!
HIP HIP HURRAY!
come come, let's hold hands and dancing around in circles~

but there's like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH work to be done
yes, THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS much
SAD CAN!
but it's okay, simleeyun will be hardworking from 17july to 20july
( notice: this is a amendment to the date stated on the previous post)

17julyseemsfamiliar..
dont think so much, dont think so much
not going to let my thinking run wild
killer headache
bye, the hardworking leeyun will take over the slacker leeyun after a good night sleep

2007-07-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

priscelia sim, you know i love you

so does mommy, daddy, ah ma and all

when was the last time we really had a talk?

i can't really remember

side note: it's time to visit my ah ma and ah gong, i know they are angry with me already

submission is on 18 july, 19 or 20 july is the day for the presentation but i am so not ready for it

rule of thumb to follow: no going out or hanging out except going to school

valid from this minute till this whole bloody crappy project comes to an end

may i bid good bye to year2 project by thurs

buck up SIMLEEYUN, no time for craps and rubbish thinkings

Aim: to clinch a B at least!

when was the last time i had dinner together with daddy and mommy or a day out with them?

i suck:

as a granddaughter

as a daughter

as a sister

as a friend

as a student

as a lover

as a human

BUT

i will improve, trust me & myself

2007-07-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

2007-07-15T14:11:00.000+08:00

transformer was great, shiok can
walked all the way back from chongpang, the walking part was okay but i hate la casa, super hate
to yt's house but didn't stay for long, was too wore out from the walk

the brain of mine is crazy and beyond of my control
it needs a repair soon

going for my hot shower
GONE-

2007-07-15T03:11:00.000+08:00

i've:
watched the firework by chance
bought a skirt
saved some bucks
drop and turn my noisy&slow Peter Parker into a silent&swift Peter Parker
drank some beer
prayed at home & guan yin temple

with:
jocelyn
yang
weiqiang

if only everyday is a relac-chill-and-slack day
let's drink to our heart content, i wonder how it feels to be drunk
prehaps the world would look more innocent&beautiful

I love Sim Yam Chuang
I love Chew Ah Suan
& I love Sim Si Ping (Lee Pin)
and they love me too

this world is too complicated for me to handle
a year has passed,17july; i said bye

2007-07-13T01:11:00.000+08:00

peiyin's blog entry really touches me, way to go girls
we are just a click away from each other's daily life so i am going to update this lil space and
visit each of their blogs everyday
but usually i dont tag, i wonder why

woke up early to modify parts of my model and to school at 5
they named this gathering as submission but they ended up signing on our models and off we could leave, hello i stay in woodlands can and travelling to and fro is a great waste of time
met joce for dinner and back to woodlands together
p.s: i am racist, super racist
to badminton court to met the girls back py went home before we reached
sat and chilled with yt and pearl for some time and set off for home, i was seriously dozed off on the way back to woodlands but once i hit home i'm alive again, weird

okay, and the dieting, no i mean healthy dieting starts tomorrow, after i enjoyed the very last piece of my pringles
be slim and keep fit!
target: 47000g if best 46000g
kill the fats at tummy, thighs and calves area and target them to the chest
no laughing, i know my boobs are tiny

and and 古惑仔 movie series are WOW holymamapapadidimeimei nice!
the songs are oh my godness and deity addictive

pm me if you want the songs

eew it's 1.39am, friday the 13th
DONT LIKE
GONE!

2007-07-12T01:11:00.000+08:00

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2007-07-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

spent last night and this evening off watching young and dangerous movie series, it's fab
and the theme songs are addictive
got to work on my model later, submission's on tomorrow at 5, pretty late
and i've got to buck up and demand more from myself
i can produce more than just Cs
dont look down on leeyun

almost every alternate day is a going-down-to-park night
hang out and chill and i usually skip the exercising part, too lazy

getting much used to having bang but thats increases the number of pimples on my forehead, not a good sign
and my weight is shooting up high again, i need to kill the laziness in me to start working out
random talks-

i used to be a sucker and die hard believer for love, that i-could-die-for-you-and-the-love type
but now i dread yearning for relationship
for breakups could kill and faithful guys are vanishing
so everything could wait, until the right one appears
i love you wholeheartedly and you love me till the end of time?
i no longer believe in these for i haven't seen a good example so far, yes none so far
take the gun shot for me, prehaps that would change my opinion

the ex-guys are bad examples
learn nor expect anything from them

alright, that's all from the point of view of a sour grape

lastly, never believe in girls taking the initiative would win the race; that is the crappest crap alive

these theories might only be valid till 11 july 12a.m sharp, for professor sim is a little insane today
that's all folks
GONE-

2007-07-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

finally submitted my work at noon and the lecturers let us off for the day

had a two hour nap and chilled at home

back from park after a chatting session with pals

it sets me thinking

my future

i've always thought i'm good enough to handle what is ahead, be it projects or my working life after graduate

but..

looking at my weaknesses, my strengths seem like dust; so tiny and insignificated

autoCAD, photoshop, photography, sketching, graphic design and so much more awaiting for me to pick up

what am i waiting for?

design has always been my favourite dream to pursue

yet working as a designer in the society required more than what it takes and what i can offer

so where does my future lies when i can't visualise what's ahead

each of us have a little dream, but going for it and successing is another issue

i have dreams too..

but this is reality

let me find a rich dirty old man and inherit his fortune after his death

but first of all i must start jogging around the bungalows

okay, craps-

2 more weeks; work it well and end it with a great work, smiles on the lips and praises singing to the ears

the life starts NOW-

2007-07-09T03:11:00.000+08:00

okay, i'm gonna take 5 to relac a bit
time check: 2.49am
i've been working on my dumb project since like 1.45pm
more then 13 hours of working on the same thing, holy crap
and i just realised my weakness on free hand sketching, i sketch like a primary school kid
no kidding
this is SAD!
imagine an interior designer student who cant sketch, laugh at me please

and the good side of leeyun won today, she's obedient and did her work
a round of applause please

but the evil side of her is winning over the good side and is telling her to anyhow complete her work and go to bed
the sketching and annotating parts make me lazy

alright, hope i'll remember to pay my school fee tomorrow or i'll be school-less
and and return the overdued books

i have to stop listening to huangyida's na nu hai too, this like playing over and over again for hours

almost 3!
GONE!

2007-07-08T03:11:00.000+08:00

i need someone to cuddle next to

someone who brings to best out of me

someone who'll stay even after i yell at him to leave

prehaps a her would do a better job

someone? ha, happy waiting ly

this is a season when everyone starts turning emotional

i hate this yet i'm doing the same too

contradicting-

ban all the junkie foods at home- no chocolates tidbits or cheesecakes

i'll even up munching these precious rubbishes at midnight

sunday is a day to cuddle beside my pillows and hug my technical drawings

what a holymama day to spend

while the evil side of me told to crawl out of the house and have some fun

no, the good side of me is telling me to stay at home and stay some time with mom

we shall see if the evil or good side wins later

i am so going to explode anytime anywhere

and i am so hating you for being such a wimp

are you a man?

roll my eyes at you

okay, buy me a punching bag

shed no tear

a wimp doesn't deserve my tears

family

friends

studies

money

emotions

i'm juggling, still a L-plated clown

2007-06-25T01:11:00.013+08:00

wo hen bu kai xin, hen bu kai xin HENG BU KAI XIN.

i dont know why.

i thought a haircut could cheer me up yet it caused me more trouble, no more kaykiang-ing.
WTH.

so i wasted my saturday sleeping, rebonding my hair and staring at com and i keep telling myself that my assignment can wait.
wait and wait and wait, never done.

feel like running to the teletubbies hill now and scream out all the vulgarities i know of.

OKAY, GONE.

/edited
the date of my posts got screwed up, all stuck at 25 june.
whatever, gone again.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.012+08:00

by jerry.
inspired by DSLY - needs confidence, chocolates & a haircut some cheesecake would be nice too.

i managed to pick up a bit of badminton skill tonight, good start for a sport idiot like me.

thanks to wq and sw. my coaches.

all of them are my shifu-es!

i am seriously missing all my girls.

haven really got a chance to hang out with them since sentosa trip, that's sad.

wish that we can meet up real soon, but my weekends are burnt for project i guess.

damn.

school is fucked up today, spare the vulgarities today cause there gonna be lots more coming.

damn mother hen criticised my dressing with her mother hen-like voice, well who the hell stated that design students are not allowed to wear fbt shorts and tank top to school?

your holymama craps, at least it looks more presentable than your liang si mei's attire.

p.s: liang si mei'a attire means her clothes all look the same one- antiques. LOL, inside joke.

worst still, my work is fucked up, i can't even meet the minimum standard required for this pin up.

totally crap-

and i lost my temper at a friend, it's bad of me to shout at him and then walk off but i am greatly pissed.

hate this manly side of me.

i have to start telling myself that i am a girl.

iamagirl, iamagirl, iamagirl, iamagirl, iamagirl..

not a brother.

curl my temper.

okay.
bye.
reminder: LEEYUN, smile MORE please.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.011+08:00

i love you because i love you.

i dont love you because i love you.

i love you because you love me.

i dont love you because you love me.

you love me because you love me.

you dont love me because you love me.

you love me because i love you.

you dont love me because you dont love me.

so this is love; got it?

i don't.

no wonder i'm still single, LOL.

so the conclusion is: im hungry.

best friend and good friend are fab.

that makes them my bf and gf.

well, time for my bloody project.

event of the day: watched wade wq sw and ky play tennis, cool can.

okay, bye.

*edited

read xr's blog and chatted with her online, o m g it's bloody true.

guys suck.

may he look at what he did that make us want to turn into lesbians.

LOL.

same birthday same fate same pattern- no gut to turn les.

i LOVE GIRLS.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.010+08:00

i stared at this empty box for more then 15 minutes.
everything just got jammed at my brain.

oh dont give me the fucking crap like ever since i know..
BULLSHITS.
guys are LIARS, not all.

the Ls are hot.
i'll be one if i can turn hot.

when sorry is said yet it can't wipe off any sorrow nor clear any pain.
guilt&down.
it's not your fault Joce, i dug this hole and jumped it myself, serve me right.
sinner seeking for forgiveness.

dad's on the way to sydney now, be back in a week's time.
mommy's missing him.
i'm missing him too.

i took like 2 hours to complete this post, and problem got solved, YEAH!
come and dance with me, no drunk.
not going to school tomorrow~

flying-

2007-06-25T01:11:00.009+08:00

sorry.

the fault lies in me, entirely me.

i'm a sinner.

be responsible for what i've done and said.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.007+08:00

back again, the urge to blog is back.
crapping session with joce.
sleep and wake up, tomorrow will be a better day.

i am an interior designer, not an inferior designer.
have faith and trust in myself, once now please.
not just a paint brush washer.

maybe i shouldn't be caring but do take care.
i know my stand this time round, i'm just concern about you as a friend at this very moment.
get well and sprint on.
i miss me, and LEEYUN will be back.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.006+08:00

Everything's f-ed up.
My f-ing neighbour is playing her f-ing piano at almost 11pm.
I have no f-ing inspiration for the f-ing submission due on tues.
My f-ing laptop hanged at the f-ing time when i'm trying to get some f-ing entertainment to relieve the f-ing stress.
f-ing stress up.
my mind is jammed with f-ing nonsensical rubbish.
we shall just get drunk and dance all we want.
only for tonight.

i'm feeling so useless.
design is my passion and strength? what bullshit.
good friend? i'm never.
pretty? just lies.

i grew up hearing compliments on my sister's beauty,
people always say:
"wa, ah bing's eyes very big, grow up sure babe..' ,
'meimei. why are you so tom-boy, your jiejie so pretty why you dont girl abit' ,
'ah bing mei nu sia, meimei why eh..'
and when i go to mama shop to get titbits, what i'll always heard would be
'boyboy what you wanna buy?'
i heard praises, but none were for me.

i've never wanted to be a manly girl,
but i've grown up, taught to be one.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.005+08:00

everyone's down.
so down.

don't lose the passion for design, or i don't even know what else i can do this life.
i look up to Tian Mu.
he's not a cook, he's a chef.
i'm not a brush paint washer, i'm a designer.

chaotic.
i want time enough for everyone and everything.
my family, my girls, my buddies, work, play and things i always wanted to learn.
but.

bye all, time for some inspiration gathering for my f-ed up proj 2b.
gone-

2007-06-25T01:11:00.004+08:00

to town with wq and co.
shopped and hanged around for hours, i came home empty handed but with a super duper bloated stomach.
spending my money on food isn't a wise choice, for eat= grow fat.
NO!
i'm a little more girlish today okay, got improvement.
CLAPS!

sorry but..
you are no longer a threat to me.
there was a past, but the past has alread passed.

be strong my friends, you can have my shoulder to lean on.
loves, for this family and pals.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.003+08:00

baby, it's me.
random.
like i've got a baby.
LOL.

think i'm going insane, derek is really disappointed with the work i submitted today and my proj 2A storyboards.
i've got a C+, i could have gotten a B+ or better.
damn my communication skill, i'm always have difficulty expressing my thoughts and this is a hell good example.
i just couldn't put my ideas into words and graphical forms to put forward the concept.
upset can.

seeing wq and co. is a daily must do thing already, haha, so used to their presence around me.
jogging and inline skating yesterday night, and i got myself a huge blueblack.
tomorrow will be a day break for me, got to relac a bit before i re-hit my engine's button.
GO LEEYUN GO!
i love LEEYUN.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.002+08:00

almost spending my everyday with wq and co., i love them can!

but there are times when there's moments of awkwardness between me and them,

it's weird why i have problems relating to people.

and i seriously hate this character of mine- too hot tempered.

i'm a good student today, went to school and did my research.

but Derek commented that my storyboards were not up to my usual standard and he questioned if im working part time job while schooling.

this got me damn upset, i ought to be improving yet i'm doing the opposite.

sigh at myself.

and today is a damn f-ing sway day for me!

arrrrgh.

i think i'm seriously dumb.

greatly appreciated wq and wade for so kan de qi me but i'm not up to the standard.

sorry and thanks!

at least they think i'm good, chuckles.

i'll join if i have jocelyn's face, but i don't so too bad.

i finally found my courage to change my navel stub!

okay, so random.

bye.

2007-06-25T01:11:00.001+08:00

okay, i skipped school again.
pepsi said it was expected.
may i turn over 'new leaf' and not skip school again, haas.
craving for more inline skating and cheesecakes.
but cheesecake are sinfully fattening, sigh.
I LOVE CHEESECAKE!
some chocolates will be nice too.

the holiday mood is still on, how to work on my proj 2b like that?
cry!
may i get to save a few more bucks for my blades.
pray-

2007-06-25T01:11:00.000+08:00

bid goodbye to holiday, but im so used to nuaning everyday.
spending most of the past few weeks with Gforce and jocelyn.
vista park is now my 2nd home and sw's and wq's houses are becoming my chalets too.
and guess what, i can skate already okay, no longer like a duck waddling.
all thanks to my shifu.

i wish i can cook or bake, i cant even fry a proper egg, seriously i think it's time for me to buck up.
i really need a new hairdo too.
falala ugly now.

it doesn't affect me as much when your name is called.
that's a good sign.
friends should never turn into foes.
can you hear me?
you can turn to me, i'm still standing strong.

countdown to Christmas: exactly 6 months
okay, duper random.
for what am i counting down.
it's was 9 months back..

p.s: my noisy Peter Parker can crawl.

2007-06-14T03:49:00.002+08:00

it's 18 june again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!

treasure this family and friends.

2007-06-14T03:49:00.001+08:00

sentosa tanning session with the girls!

oh happy time! except that the rain was a lil spoiler and my carves for hurting so much.

i want boobs like xh's, big and nice can.

but i am not pervert la, just more tiko than usual girls.

and i welcome back my backache, carve muscles strain + backache makes me walk like duck.

that things i've done in the past, was that me?

forgive and forget, forgive and forget..

how do i forgive myself?

-to be a better man.

my girls, never forgotten.

is it too late to make a turn back?

but i can't seem to find the way back.

lead me out, i need your hands.

you have successfully walked out of me,

i will walk out of you soon too.

2007-06-14T03:49:00.000+08:00

i feel like a weakling, this is not right.
i shouldn't be.

so i guess she did read the previous post- good or bad sign?

my navel piercing is giving me problems and i have to urge to give it up.
human are dumb, spend money to give themselves pain.

i am not feeling so alright now, there a weird feeling in me.
have i really gave up?
there's this emptiness in me, i feel like a lost soul. i don't know what i want, i don't want what makes me happy anymore.
and i know, i've changed.
i can no longer interact with people like i used to, i no longer open up to them.
who knows my littlest secrets?
for all along, i kept my mouth and heart shut.
i kept quiet, pretend and ignore but.
i am not feel alright.
not alright at all.
i feel empty, so empty that it scares me too.

suddenly.
i dont believe in love anymore.
is marriage out of true love or dependence on the othe person?
what is love, when you habour high materialistic expectations like the monthly salary of your future husband before you even consider about being with him?
what is love, when you set criterials about how your boyfriend should look and how he should be dressed like?

A could do all the sweetest things a guy could ever do for you, yet all you have in return for him is a smile and thank you.
B could just bring you on for a dinner and walk you home but in your eyes, he's the sweetest guy you've even met and wanted.
morale of the story: life's unfair? this is love? there is no rights or wrongs in love?
well, i don't know whats the morale but this is reality.

i could everything i could for you, but in your heart i am only a smile-to-and-say-thanks friend.

whether you admit or not, everyone needs to be loved.
it's not about being despo or not, it's the sense of assurance, being needed and cared for we are after.
so yes, i need some love.

2007-06-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

fuck second.
fuck money.
fuck unfairness.

my personal message was: lesbians are hot.
and many came to persuade me not to turn les.
but seriously! they need courage and substance to be a lesbian, that's something i can't.
i admit i did have some lil thoughts about turning into one, but i know i cant physically.
no worries people, i've not hot enough to be one.
but thanks to jerry, i got to watch spider lilies!
blame him if i turn into les after watching.

and and Formula1 is the HOT thing man.
addictive.
i am glued to Engine too.
but the sad thing is i'm not going to learn driving anytime soon. Money, time and devotion are the limiting factors.

got to rot for the remaining days of this holiday, no job no fun no life.
i want to go k-ing again soon~

this feels so crappy.
imagine you are stuck in between and that guy is your past, what will you do?
help her?
say the truth that you feel awkward and kinda painful to interfere?
or help him?
wow, this is like fun.

the sizzling topic: men VS women, girls VS boys
wa.
fun.

i miss boyboy and meimei.
i love the way boyboy sticks to me, kiss me on the left cheek, kiss me n the right cheek and runs into my arms.
awww, i miss ah long too.
at times, i hope to be like a kid.

2007-05-31T01:23:00.000+08:00

YAY YAY YAY!
it's submission day and no work day!
and it's HOLIDAY~~~
gonna work at suntec for the PC show from thurs till sunday, it's gonna be tiring but no choice.
hang on!
at least i've got something to do during the holi, i simply got no idea what to do after the PC show ends.

met yang the meh and ang gu kueh ( with bean paste filling) to TP for submission.
great thanks to them for carrying my model to school, luckily i abandoned the wooden frame dad asked his staff to do for me or i can't even get to school by cab, it's way too long.
but thanks got to thank dad for his help, i've got a nice dad. grins.

hanged around with joce and that two guys, duper hilarious.
P.S: that two freaks got the same frequency.

emptiness.
barriers.
loner.
try listening to kangkang's ni wo ta and li kai le, they are tear-jerking.

i feel like weeping.
crazy.

我和你和他之间的故事
该怎么解释
我爱你你却爱他
他又爱着谁

我和你和他之间的故事
该怎么结束
我痛苦你清楚
他比我幸福比我幸福

你爱上一个不爱你的他
该不该等待

我爱上一个不爱我的你
算不算悲哀

what's our 主题曲?

2007-05-28T03:23:00.000+08:00

time check: 3.28 a.m
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BROTHER/SISTER TOH.
g o s h. i a m s o t i r e d o u t.
seriously tired.
had a great night with my islerx, at dis-cussion celebrating xueying's and puiman's birthday.
i believe all of us enjoyed ourselves.
cam whored and play games.
initiated to create our group collage and yingting's gonna do a movie up.
but this coming week is so packed up, with submission on wednesday and work from wednesday to sunday.
i know i'm gonna wear myself out, for my physical endurance sucks, i just need more money.
but i don't know why i need them for.
dad and mom didn't torture me and gave me enough to spend, but everyday without fail i'll complain that i'm broke.
sounds so dumb isn't it.
prehaps it's time i earn some bucks on my own and get some gifts for my folks.
i am behind time for my project, though the model is almost completed but i've still got the story boards to work on.
and i'm BIGhead-ing about how i am going to bring that HUGE or should i say LONNGGG model to TP without cabbing and how i am going to submit my proj when i'm working at 12 but submission is at 4p.m.
that's the result of kaykiang-ing.
BIGHEAD.arrrrghhhhhhh.
whatever la, give me a can of whatever please.
i'm going to catch some sleep, and at least complete 70% of my storyboarding by today, 28may.
it's a die-die-must-hit target.
BUT, i promise to go see doctor with yang in the morning, i seriously don't know why i am so kaykiang for the percentage of me oversleeping is:100%.
and not to forget i've got to complete 70% of my storyboard!
gosh, i feel so dead now.

i need this family to keep me on going.and not to forget my islerx girls.

of you. of you. of you. of you.
i think.
this sounds so retarded.
whatever la, give me a can of ANYTHING.
when the idea is there, execute it.
now my idea is published by others first.
SO SAD LA.

i am bad, and you like it.
time check: 3.53a.m
i am dead sure i can't wake up at 7 in the morning to prepare, so..
either i get killed by that army guy OR i kill myself.

you.
you made all of us so miserable.
i never knew smiles could be poisonous.
i never thought songs could turn into drugs.
and even slightest things you would do tigger my emotions.
how fancinating.
her beauty is so breath taking, that even i, a girl, could be so attracted to her.
i would melt for her, and no wonder you did.
for i am just a plain jane, the one nobody ever notices in the crowd.
who won't want to the leading cast?
i don't want to be an unknown, unnoticed supporting role anymore.
i would seek through the ocean and land, to find somewhere, someone, who needs me as the leading lady in his life.

timecheck: 4.11a.m(pressing the on-off button) i'm off for the night.

2007-05-21T03:23:00.002+08:00

如果我们还会重新相遇, 我不会让你决定我的伤心..

yamseng! i'm finally over and done with my italian class!
i had a serious HARD time carrying all the boards home, and i took bus (notice the word bus) all the way from tp back home. i saved money like 20 bucks okay, but called mom down for SOS when i alighted from 901, too tired fighting against those boards, so stubborn can.

i'm seriously not in the right mood to talk to people today, be it online or whatsoever, for it always end in dismay.
what's wrong man, it's not like i want to pick up fights with people.
whatever it is, i've been a good girl today as i went for studio and italian class and i did some work there.
gonna reward myself with a day off at home tomorrow. but my off day doesn't seems like one, for i still got to work on the final model and it's gonna be HUGE man but the good thing is i dont have to waste my precious time travelling to and fro.

i am SO upset now la, with the i-don't-even-know-the-reason-too reason.
sounds so dumb.

and my mom is really duper weird for the past few days, she kept asking if i have a boyfriend.
g o s h.
i think it's prefectly reasonable for her to ask me that if i keep on hanging out or giggle over the phone every night.
but that's when i don't.
and i told her how i wish i've got one, at least i don't have to call her down to rescue me for my boards.
haas, o m g, i sound despo.
i don't take anyone okay, i only want someone.
but..

why can't we work it out well?

whatever, i shall start opening up my lil eyes and scan thru TP for eyecandies to keep me alive in school.

GO AWAY, DON'T COME BY AND SCREW UP MY WORLD AGAIN.
if what you will bring are heartbreaks.

2007-05-21T03:23:00.001+08:00

wowowowowowowoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~
just saw this ad on teevee, the lil boy was like wo-ing for 5 seconds, so CUTE.
and i miss AH LONG!!
i don't know why i'm missing him so much, when he is weelee's cousin, not mine. haha.
how i wish i could kidnap him and make him my boyfriend.

nearly couldn't make it fr the submission this morning, i was really damn weary and i got to carry the dumb huge site model to school, dad was nice to sponsor me cabfare but the journey was terrible. i was on the verge of vomitting when there was traffic jam and the driver kept stepping on the bloody brake.
and i'm seriously thrifty guy, spending like twenty bucks on cabfare is a bigNEVER to me next time, i'm gonna learn to drive and make dad's car mine. wahlala~
BUT, i have not even registered for the basic theory.
good at saying but never doing it, that's sounds total VERYLEEYUN.
chuckles-

checklist of stuff said yet no actions taken yet:
blood donation
sign up for reggae class
take up driving lesson
UK funfair! ( it's like i'll pass by it everyday yet i only got to play bumper cars once by driver Evan.
and yes, i've only played the bumper cars. when will it be time for my carousel and ferris wheel ride?
sulk-

back to the submission thing, i'm good at longwind-ing (and creating new vocabs).
forgot all about the nauseous feeling i had once i saw pepsi and co, weird.
felt so inferior when i walked around to look at others' works.
gosh, gifford's was damn HUGE, just like his build, even my look-very-huge site model seemed small as compared to his.

tm-ed for lunch and jayden's present hunting, had a lil celebration for him and he smelled like cake at the end of the day, thanks to his darlng huiying's secret cooperation with me.
grins-

met zhuo si ni(sit you till you're dead), feng feifei( gan xie ni~) and ang ku kueh (bean paste, not peanutpaste) and jalanjalan-ed a while before heading home. thanks for the choco and fan-ing, i almost died at the pasam malam. kinda kwa teo.
hokkien speaking is fun, haha.

ohmyholySHITO, i'm having listening and writing test for Italian later, but look what i've done for revision- nothing.
have not even lift a finger on the role play for thurs, how great.
something's wrong with my digestive system, eat and then puke becomes my daily routine.
it feels sick.

i think you are really good at making me feel down.
you always manage to pull me deep down.
i have enough of those days, yet there' s always something about you that makes me stay.
i am dumb. period.
it is said that we always spurt out harsh words at loved ones because we know them too well, even their weakest point.
are we the same too?
did i hurt you?
well, you did to me.
i am hurt.

2007-05-21T03:23:00.000+08:00

i'm taking this five minute break to rant here, look at the date of my last entry, that's the evidence of how hectic my life has been.
this blog is oh so dead, doubt anyone visits.

20may wasn't a great day, it was a sunday and yet i'm all tied down with school assignments.
i've been working on them for the weekends, no going out at all unless the trip to cwp to fish for mom's new cellphone is counted.
gosh, it was really a bad day, with so many activities and stuff going on.
really guilty for ps-ing yang.

NO TIME NO TIME!
i need more of time.

and him, again.
we really have problem communicating.
i didn't expect you to understand me nor do i say i want to understand you, talks always end up in a nasty way, that's disappointing.
i've got no time for heartbreaks, yes, not now.

friday was a good one, pyin's birthday party at her home.
laughing with old kiddo-time friends like qianzhi and zhenwei, teevee-ing session with pals, mini gambling den, sam's little birthday surprise, bum molesting and more, great for destressing.
i need more of these.
hang on, just a few more nights.

21may to 29may are reserved for school work, 30may to 3june are reserved for work, ohmyholymama, when can i rest?
please let me off on the the coming weekend, don't give me assignments!!

my UK funfair and spiderman3, please wait for me!
guess what, i took more than 5 minute of break and it's now 3.52am!
no need to sleep then.

i can pretend on too, that i don't give a damn.
stop.
you have my past, you win.
so don't step on my sorrow.
anymore.

2007-05-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

why am i an option in your life when you are my piority.

i need the determination to be determined, and you asked why.
sung me a lullaby, owing me another three that would never be returned.
walk away or sit down; make either a move, don't stand at the doorstep for i can't predict what's next.
there are times one could get so sick of standing alone.
my bad, i can't find the right way opening up myself to others, i could only do it my best way yet it's the worst way ever.

sing on, don't stop.

2007-05-07T01:23:00.000+08:00

5 may

day out to celebrate weiqiang lao er's birthday.
great time spent with G force guys and some others, with masks and hiding underneath of seats in the train.

games, physical training and story and fortune telling at park till dawn breaks.
the same old guys kept making mistakes when the hints were to obvious, haha, cute.
good time together.
though don't really know most of them, but funny as they can be.
thanks to lao er for inviting and a happy 19th birthday to him. (:

6 may

present hunting with qiang yang joce and xh, to sotong's party.
that's where i had all sort feelings, except happiness.
that's where i saw and met familiar strangers, how contradicting.
but greatly appreciated sotong for inviting, hope he enjoyed himself too.

to uk funfair for bumper cars, evan drove me around.
i always wanted a ride on the carousel and ferris wheel, but varnish to nowhere were the anticipation for them.
did the poker fortune telling for myself, i thought alot about us but the outcome was uncertain, i can't interprete parts of it.
looking back, there's really so much i've done, for each and every, but input is never equal to output.
so much of sickness, diappointment and tears and pain.
i'm down.

what the doggy fucking hell is love?
oh my holymama, tell me show me prove me right.

there's proj2 and test later to have headache of, but here i am thinking all these craps.
feel like cutting my hair really short.
damn, how can i help her?

2007-04-30T00:55:00.002+08:00

may italian and proj2 drive me mad, even my friendly italian lecturer got so pissed off with my learning rate, how mavellous.
i'm shifting house to hougang before the end of this month, no house warming but feel free to drop by.

ohholymama, it's finally weekend! but, there's like so much work to be done, how to enjoy unwind myself?
damn.
been seeing jocelyn and xiaohui real often, without them i think i'll go mad.
thanks alot girls!
but hopefully with less of jocelyn's patterns-more-than-badminton please, or i'll end up insane.

more birthday parties and celebrations coming up, hopefully a great gathering for the girls on pyin's birthday!

why do i feel empty?

2007-04-30T00:55:00.001+08:00

i suppose i am disappointed.
when the names were announced and i'm not one of those 4 girls who got selected, my heart kinda sank, it's like i can really feel it sinking, not kidding.
real life proj seh!
okay, forget it, i'm been down in luck since like last november.
it's almost half a year already, stop my swayness can?!
):

and i guess i'll turn crazy at the end of this month, not kidding.
having italian and proj2 together in the same block is bad enough, but having italian from evening 6 to 9 and a duper tight schedule for proj 2 is hell-like.
it's like we have 2 submissions every week.
wow, isn't it hell?
and pronouncing the words is a bad headache for me, i have a fat tongue. ):
it's so much more difficult than japanese.
i feel like a loser, for im having thoughts about dropping italian.
i do like this language alot, it's very interesting, but it will hinder my proj2 progession for sure ( i a duper slacker + last minute worker) and i cant imagine the writing, speaking and listening test to be taken at the same time as proj2 part 1 submission.
oh my holymama crap.
help help help!
should i drop?
i am soooooooo bothered by the upcoming assignments, school stuff and the 3 hr break!!
got so pissed off with the thought of them that i forced myself to sleep till late afternoon and missed going out today.
sorry jocelyn, i promised to acc you for gift shopping.
got some family matter to settle but my laoda isn't home yet.
i am so greatly pissed off this so called relative, yes, i labelled him so called relative for he doesnt treat us as one.
damn him, don't tell me you are not a son of a female, if you are then why are you looking down on female.
i bear with you when you look down on me for i give you some basic respect, but not when you treat my mom without some manners.
threaten to quit, how funny, you how old already still threaten, like the company cant survive without you.
what a joke, HA.

year2 marks the start of HELL.

2007-04-30T00:55:00.000+08:00

i am going to be in school in less than 12 hpurs, oh my.
i dread going to school, it marks the start of proj2 and italian class.
ohmytian!
siao siao, we are just stepping into year 2 and here we welcome our year2 project.
how funny.
aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhh, wo bu yao go to sch la.
the stress is coming back.

proj2 from 12 to 3 and italian is from 6 to 9, what am i going to do during the 3hr break, i can't even go back home.
and i reall hope i can be one of those three who get selected for the real life proj, but there are so many good ones in my course plus my GPA..
but imagine!
you get to work on the a real life project, oh shoik!
but that would mark the end of my june holiday.
holymama, it's pointless to think so far, for me being one of those three is a miracle.
and miracle = fat hope.

dinner at east coast park and a tour around spore just now, with joce xh and her friends.
supposed to be a relaxing night with beach strolling but my mind's preoccupied by the upcoming project.
holymama shit.
this is crap.

my carousel and fairy wheel ride with who?
i need a guy, it's not about being despo or something, or prehaps it is.
enough of being a giver, i need to be a taker this time.
i'm glad i have friends around to keep me going, especially jocelyn, for everyday she has to bear with my zou kai and diam diam.
she can be so irritating at times, but.. she never failed to be ther and make me smile.
thanks a million pal.

i'm missing my dad, he's away again.
i am a daddy's girl and mommy's boy.

goodnight to the world..
come what may, my new life..

2007-04-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

unappreciated.
yes, unappreciated is the word.
i seriously dont understand what's in me that is so good to be made use of.

i helped i helped and i helped, but there's always a limit to everything, so is my help.
it can get so sick and tired.

as i thought i'm leading a happy life again.

2007-04-22T01:30:00.000+08:00

FINALLY.
cheers for the end of MMFun, no more worries about missing school and not catching up.
Over are those hours i spent staring at the screen, desperately figuring out the holy creations- dreamweaver & photoshop.
Out of 7 days every week, i've only been attending school for one or two days, all thanks to that killer sleeping disturbance.
and it made me miss out the DOC camp also, holymama.
no nightwalk for me, no sentosa trip, no fun and i even got pepsi angry for aeroplaning her the day before the camp.
how saddening.
but i'm glad she forgave me, or this super guilty guilt would stay with me.
saw a doc and the queue was super duper long, it was only my turn when the clock ticked eleven plus, but the doc is good, worth the wait, haha.

dad was away to shanghai for the past six days, mommy missed him so much yet still deny when i asked her, LOL. she wants to save face.
and of cause i miss him too, he's my laoda aka big brother okay.
dont play play ah.

right before i blogged i actually have lots x 100 to tell, but i seems to forget them all out of sudden.
great day spent with joce, xhui, louis and his friends at the zoo and night safari although the rain was a lil mood spoiler.
we saw so many animals that i cant even remember which is which for they all look almost the same to me.
but they are all so q-te, if only i can catch them all home, got to blame my house for being too small for them.
oh no, not with me they will be staying with even if i can bring them back, for their dungs are of killer smelly.
LOL.

and that suspension bridge, i swear i'm gonna tear it down if i ever own the zoo, that bridge is really terribly horrible!!
let's start a protest to tear it down.
it really got me wa-ed.

cheers with me, it stopped. finally. when i start turning nasty.
dont haunt me like mad, you got me into this fear, and i need no more of that.
this paranoid wont no longer be here to stay with me, i dont need it nor do i want it.

and i am going to be soooooooooo free on tomorrow,
this coming monday,
tuesday,
wednesday,
thursday,
friday,
saturday and
sunday.

i dislike my timetable for the coming semester, for project2 would start a week away, gosh.
feel the stress coming and crawling right behind my neck, scary!

enough of ranting, jocelyn loves les-ing with me and holding my hand, LOL.
and she's buying me toys!
yeah.
lalalalalalala~

all i need is true friends now.

2007-04-13T03:46:00.000+08:00

insomnia.
insomnia.
insomnia.
INSOMNIA.
this is pestering me every single night, it's not like i didn't try to turn in early, i'll just end up waking up in the mid of the night without fail.
i watch the sky turns bright, before i can get some sleep.
i've been missing lectures, it's something i wouldn't want to.
but i could hardly catch up with the lessons now, nor do i have the energy to travel to and fro school.
with irregular sleeping hours and time, my temper is getting worse and with all the stress, problems and non-understanding from some, i feel so out of control.

it is hell. i could finally feel how mom feels like.
not sleeping kills, not physically, but mentally.
my days and nights are swapped.
i'm leading a night life now.

prehaps it's high time i break free from everything, i need a long break.
prehaps simple things like kite-flying and cycling would help,
prehaps i need to see a psychologist, prehaps a short visit overseas would help..
prehaps..

i feel so inferior of myself, prehaps i'm good for nothing.
stop wasting the grains on Earth.

2007-04-11T03:46:00.000+08:00

太多事，让我变得不像我了。　
站在镜子面前，却看不见真实的自己。

俐云变了。

2007-04-08T02:19:00.000+08:00

im sorry for the trouble i caused.
i really din expect things to turn out this way, one more friend is always better than one more enemy, that's what i used to believe in.
i couldn't explain why, the uneasiness and the fear.
if you were the one experiencing it.
the carpark.
helpless, in great fear.
chain killer calls, silence.
every minute passed by like hours.
i pray for you to come by to rescue me, but nowhere in sight were you.
brother came, that's when i found a famliar reliance.
countless of times in the night, nightmares shook me awake.
i dread being alone now, the reason i wont want to stay home.
if only you knew, and rescued me.
if only i have the rights to do so.

thanks bat, super, robin and superstar and all.

2007-03-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~i am here to rant!
school started 2 days ago, yet i've been there for neither of the days.
tues- la-ed 6 times in a day, where the hell would i find energy to go to school.
today- insomnia, plus the effect of la-ing the day before = po school.
and the result for it is not knowing what's going on for class, no idea what the hell the notes and assignments that the lecturer emailed us mean.

wo tao yan multimedia!!

helpME~~~~~
i need to adjust my physical clock too,
my nights are my days and my days becomes my nights now.
stupid.
utterly stupid.
dont provoke me i tell you, yes, i am envy of you, so dont bother showing off.
scram!

2007-03-23T15:52:00.002+08:00

MTV jazz and street jazz.
140 bucks for 10 lessons, once every saturday from 4 to 5 pm.
some of us most probably will be joining in april, text me if you are interested yea.
the more the merrier.
located at chinatown area.

2007-03-23T15:52:00.001+08:00

finally can post!
damn blogger, keep denying my entries.
there can only be 2 reasons behind it:
a) god's will, for the content of past entries cant be exposed
b) blogger hates me

will be going to camp later till sun.
i'll be missing my cosy bed, everyday-must-touch labby and friends.
damn, i've forgotten to call my course manager about dropping the subjects again, arrrgh.

btw i've two new found idols!!!
tian mu and raven.
after a lil chat wth tianmu, it really motivates me alot.
it doesnt matter what others' see you, it's self satisfaction that make your hard work worthwhile.
as for raven, i dont really know him well or something, but i'm driven by his passion and determination for basketball.
everytime when i feel so uncertain of myself, it's his blog that motivates me.
salute to both my idols.
(:

off to pack my barang barang for camp~

2007-03-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

killed my drawings, left with the 2 write up and 2 presentation to deal with.
to hell with them, spoil my mood to enjoy later.
a day pretty hectic, first to wedding, then to lian's bbq and hopefully i can make it to kr's one too.
it's my lingling jiejie's wedding today, been calling her this since young, make me nearly forget about her actual name.
ever since her parents got separated, she no longer could stay or visit ah ma's house like she used to.
it's only in the recent years when she gain back her freedom, and never had she forgotten about this big family.
but what upset us is not getting to see ahboy korkor even since then, i wish to know the exact answer behind it.

may her marriage be well blessed, with happiness.

she me shi ai?

2007-03-16T01:41:00.000+08:00

the mood to blog is lacking in me for the past few days, but i'm coming back cause i need to talk to someone, or rather somewhere.
assignments are piling up sky high, awaiting for me to get them done but the motivation and mood just isn't there. emotion is the reason why my work always get affected, my killer.

read through almost all of my past entries, some sound so nooby to me, haas.
and most of the times for the past years, i am the one waiting, no matter for someone, or a chance to prove myself.
this can get so tiring, and i've got so tired that.. i just want to turn away from everything and everyone.
stop running.
i'm almost giving up.

work to be done:
2 presentations with 2 1000 word write-up.
3 or 4 drawings.
group presentation.

events to attend:
liyan's bbq
kheerui's bbq
lingling jiejie's wedding
( all of them fall on the same day, oh man)

situations to be settled:
uncountable.

overall: HELL
oh my tian~

wo hao lei, zhen de hen lei..
jie wo jian bang kao yi kao, ke yi ma?

2007-03-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

visited gonggong on saturday night, i could see tears welling up in dad's eyes when gonggong mentioned about death.
life.. fragile it is.

day out with family to queentown, got dad's sneakers, my black skinny and some other stuff.
to suntec to meet evan and wendy up, waited for xh and joce to off work and supper at usual place with the girls.

second night of chalet with my girls, we'll be booking out tomorrow night.
hell, got to attend school.
chalet + school week = cant enjoy to the max + unfinished assignment. ):
and an apology to evan, really sorry.
arrrgh, phone's low batt, with none of us bringing sony ericsson charger.
how cute can we be.

misses-

2007-03-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

from no feel, hectic, pekchek, to flour war, fooling around and happy.
great thanks to all who came and unlimited of thanks to those who helped me out.
i really had fun towards the end of the night.
=D

能不能再靠近一点点..

2007-03-08T02:16:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to xiaorui,
happy birthday to kheerui,
and happy birthday to myself.

谁说生日就会快乐?
wobukuaile.
toomuchdifferences..

2007-03-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEWKWAN!!

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WILLY LIM WEELEE, MY PAPA~

haha, spent pretty long looking for his photos in my com, so long since i last took pictures with most of them.

and he's so cute looking in these 2 pictures. wohoho, he was semi drunk then.

went to melvin's bbq on sat.

joce and i spent like 5 hours from 12 plus to almost 6 talking in the park and we were waiting to see the eclipse too.

fortunately the moon was covered by the clouds and we went home without watching, cause joce read the newspaper and told me that some believe one would be unlucky for half a year if he or she watched it.

heng ah heng ah~

slept for a mere few hours and out to sembawang with joce and ongong to go bai tai sui.

lots of kids at weelee's house and 阿龙really caught my full attention.

阿龙超 C-U-T-E~!

he isnt greedy cause weelee proved to me by givin him 10 bucks but yet he doesnt take it.

and he kept playing the peeping game with me, wohoho, he's cuteness is so much different from other kids.

one of wl's cousin bluetoothed me 阿龙's picture cause he was shy and kept ignoring my camera. haha.

weird, this picture look more like his cousin who bluetoothed me the pic than 阿龙.

LOL.

the kids are engrossed in conning ben's money, and ben's 20 bucks flew into their pockets. haas.

took this picture when i got him to show me his wallet.

haha, and his wallet is the chicky club de, ke ai dao~

feel so down when he left, if only i have kidnapped him home, wohoho.

ta zhen de hen guai man, lost money wont be like other kids kaysiao then run away, he still will go take money or exchange with his parents to return.

and his smile is so magical, that he made me forget all my worries.

i'm totally into him now, so i'm planning to woo weelee and marry him in order to see 阿龙 everyweek.

woooohoooo~

abirthdaywish, can you help me to fulfil it?

ni hen wei nan.. wo dong.

2007-03-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK!
just got back from egypt, it is definitely a country full of wonders.
i am so missing it now~
upload the photo soon, too exhausted from the trip to do anything else now.

by the way the above mentioned is just- CRAPS.
that's the result of having to attend school while the rest are having their holiday, HOW FAIR CAN MY SCHOOL BE, so nice of them. arrrgh.

23 feb- went k-ing with guan and co before visiting ah jon's house, saw my money flying into others' pockets. $.$
the rest of the days are merely spent o my proj1 submission or going out, and the good news is my proj 1 is finally over and done with, woooooo~ shuang!
special thanks to digui for travelling all the way to tp to help me carry my work there.

and here comes the bad news- SCHOOL TILL 23 MARCH!!!o m g, ihateitihateitihateit~~~~~~
and there gave me two difficult and time consuming modules for this block, dont like them.

THE BIRTHDAY GAYS~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO KENT OOI~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO BENJAMIN HO~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MELVIN QUEK~

hours of present choosing before we could finally step into ben's house.stayed till 12+ and back home to do my assignment, i find myself pathetic. ):

slept at 4+ and set my mind to pretend-to-be-in-deep-sleep mode to convince myself to pon school.
but still i climbed out of bed at 6+, with a force of motivation behind me. TEEHEE.

got to go back to my assignments after assignments, submissions aftersubmissions day. BYE~

2007-02-21T16:23:00.000+08:00

chu yi`

mom and dad not in spore, so sis and i went around to painian-ing to kill boredom.
one of the places we went to was my 2nd aunt's place, and one of the little relative of hers was SUPER cartoon like her son. her son, who's my cousin, is 11 this year, and the girl is 8. she super gao xiao, and i nearly got strangled to death by her, LOL.

chu er`
dad and mom finally came back from msia, but with a bad news - gong gong fell real sick. i ought to have gone back to visit him. guilt struck.
happy time gambling with my cousins, the kiddos conned my money, LOL.
in the end my youngest cousin kup and joined force with me, luck as with me and we recouped much of our terrible loss, and i let him have the winnings, he was like so happy. haha.
took many pictures with andy and aaron, and played xian nu ban with them.
it was a happy day, although kinda bored at times.

chu san`

mom die de also must drag me to her friend's house to pai nian, ate and sit for a while then i ran off le. haha, caue all aunties and uncles, and i've got no topic to chat with them. to town to meet wendy and the guys, hanged around with them.
my heels nearly killed my feet, wear so many times already but now then pain. idiotic.
this new yar can b such a bore.

today`

woke up with pretty good mood, to sch for consultaton then back before 1.
good news od the day- submittion is delaye to monday!!
weet u weet~
but it means that better work is to be produced. ):

continuetotalktomepls.

2007-02-17T20:36:00.001+08:00

at ah gong house right now, dad and mom's in malaysia now.
a pretty different cny this year, just had reunion dinner with ah gong, ah ma, gan die, da yi, da yi zhang and sis.
for this year, there'll be no fireworks, no sound of firecrackers coming from next door, no visiting of temple when the clock strikes twelve.
starting to miss my folks and those days in sungei rengit now, it isn't too bad to spend in singapore also, but if would be better with my dad and mom to bring us around.

in the meanwhile, im starting worry for the drawings i have to complete and submit on next friday. o m g, no time no time.
can't possibly do my work here for the mess i'll create is undescribable. haas.
time check: 8.34 pm.
hao men ah, you mei you ren ke yi entertain wo?

):

2007-02-17T03:02:00.000+08:00

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